reznikoff
Despondent
- Jan 13, 2019
- 43
trigger warning for sexual assault applies here.
in 2018, when i was sixteen i was raped by my 20 year old boyfriend. i was a kid, i didn't know any better. i thought he loved me. i kept my mouth shut until our breakup not long after my 17th birthday a few months later - i got sick of the verbal abuse and called it quits.
i reported the assault in november 2019. my case was tossed around in the dirt and through the hands of FOUR different detectives (the first three of which had to remove themselves from the case because of injury/switching departments). didn't hear anything for months. had to contact the chief of police of my city personally to ask what was the situation. finally got word that my case was rejected by the district attorney a long time ago. i had evidence, i had a full written recant of the event, plus my assailant was on probation at the time and had 2 prior sex crimes on his record.
America's justice system, everyone. where the victim is scrutinized, abused, and thrown through the wringer for coming forward, and the assailant can slip through the cracks almost every single time.
the idea of my rapist facing justice was the only thing keeping me going for months. knowing I will never get justice is the last straw. life is unsatisfying and unfulfilling and unfair as fuck. victims of assault of any nature deserve better. women need to stop being chastised for staying with their abusers. men who are victims of sexual assault need to be taken more seriously. above all, rapists deserve to go to prison. America, do better. lmfao.
i'm going to wait a while. try to sort things out. then before this year is over im done. this cycle of suffering and disappointment and pain - i'm not taking it anymore.
in 2018, when i was sixteen i was raped by my 20 year old boyfriend. i was a kid, i didn't know any better. i thought he loved me. i kept my mouth shut until our breakup not long after my 17th birthday a few months later - i got sick of the verbal abuse and called it quits.
i reported the assault in november 2019. my case was tossed around in the dirt and through the hands of FOUR different detectives (the first three of which had to remove themselves from the case because of injury/switching departments). didn't hear anything for months. had to contact the chief of police of my city personally to ask what was the situation. finally got word that my case was rejected by the district attorney a long time ago. i had evidence, i had a full written recant of the event, plus my assailant was on probation at the time and had 2 prior sex crimes on his record.
America's justice system, everyone. where the victim is scrutinized, abused, and thrown through the wringer for coming forward, and the assailant can slip through the cracks almost every single time.
the idea of my rapist facing justice was the only thing keeping me going for months. knowing I will never get justice is the last straw. life is unsatisfying and unfulfilling and unfair as fuck. victims of assault of any nature deserve better. women need to stop being chastised for staying with their abusers. men who are victims of sexual assault need to be taken more seriously. above all, rapists deserve to go to prison. America, do better. lmfao.
i'm going to wait a while. try to sort things out. then before this year is over im done. this cycle of suffering and disappointment and pain - i'm not taking it anymore.
