Story I am leaving this site.

[Hateyouprolife]

I survived suffocation with citric acid bag and baking soda and inhaling pool water. Im better now, even though I think life overally is pointless, I chanced my personality, wanna keep living now.

You can ask me and I will answer. Im not goung to ctb anymore.

 

[cambrai33]

I survived suffocation with citric acid bag and baking soda and inhaling pool water. Im better now, even though I think life overally is pointless, I chanced my personality, wanna keep living now.

You can ask me and I will answer. Im not goung to ctb anymore.

I'm really happy for you

Tell us what happened when you feel ready. I posted in the scheduled thread and just noticed this post.

 

[miserableforever]

I survived suffocation with citric acid bag and baking soda and inhaling pool water. Im better now, even though I think life overally is pointless, I chanced my personality, wanna keep living now.

You can ask me and I will answer. Im not goung to ctb anymore.

All my best wishes for you out there. Stay safe!

 

[motel rooms]

You can ask me and I will answer.

I chanced my personality

Changed?
Interesting. How did you manage to do that?

 

[Hateyouprolife]

Changed?
Interesting. How did you manage to do that?

It started with sleeping too little too long. Then came my last week and decided to live life its fullest as I can.

And then 4 nights either passed out or not sleeping at all.
Ended in delirium, heard and saw hallucinations, my inner demons. Im really surprised that I woke today, considering what I did last night. It was like a dream.

 

[deathLiberation]

I´ve heard stories of people who changed their attitude towards life after a near death experience.

Maybe that is the sweetspot for some.

 

[Hateyouprolife]

I´ve heard stories of people who changed their attitude towards life after a near death experience.

Maybe that is the sweetspot for some.

I hadnt near death experience. I just lost contact sith reality, but I did suspect something is wrong.

Anyway I think now that drugs such as ketamine which can induce "maddnes" in safe enviroment could realle be the cure to many mental healt issues.

Im really glad that I did woke up today, seems like no brain damage too.

 

[JinZhin]

I only want to say I am happy for you, wish you all the best out there <3

 

[noname223]

I wish I could recover. So that my life quality would improve then I would try to live too. However everything fails and fails.

 

[Hateyouprolife]

I wish I could recover. So that my life quality would improve then I would try to live too. However everything fails and fails.

I get it, but image if you wake up tomorrow different person, happy. It is possibl atleast was for me. Never been hapoier to wake up!

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm pleased that things got better for you, I hope things continue to go well, I wish you the best.

 

[Hateyouprolife]

I'm pleased that things got better for you, I hope things continue to go well, I wish you the best.

Trust me, they will. I managed to not sync thoughts with reality, but reality with my thoughts

 

[Deleted member 8975]

I hope you didn't suffer with that :( I'm glad you found a reason or something inside of you that makes you want to live.

 

[miserableforever]

I´ve heard stories of people who changed their attitude towards life after a near death experience.

Maybe that is the sweetspot for some.

Seems like it. I read about people completely changing after brain injury/accidents too. It's a thin line.

 

[Ego Sum Medusa]

That is wonderful news and I'm happy for you. :)
Why not hang around in the Recovery Group? Maybe you can help some peeps there, if you're up for it, after some rest. NO pressure. :)
Gods, that's all any of us needs, more pressure. LOL

 

[cooldude420]

going 2 tri ayuhuasca?

 

[Hateyouprolife]

That is wonderful news and I'm happy for you. :)
Why not hang around in the Recovery Group? Maybe you can help some peeps there, if you're up for it, after some rest. NO pressure. :)
Gods, that's all any of us needs, more pressure. LOL

Maybe even gonna do it. 24h after waking up feeling okay.

 

[Hateyouprolife]

Seems like it. I read about people completely changing after brain injury/accidents too. It's a thin line.

I think it is less about brain damage and more about realisation that I can now leave every moment should I want. Looking back there were too many strange coincidences that all determined my status

 

[motel rooms]

I wish I could recover. So that my life quality would improve then I would try to live too. However everything fails and fails.

No offense to anyone, don't mean to be a party pooper & to rain on parades, but I'm skeptical as to whether the "change of personality" OP has achieved will be permanent. Best of luck to them...

 

[stellabelle]

I survived suffocation with citric acid bag and baking soda and inhaling pool water. Im better now, even though I think life overally is pointless, I chanced my personality, wanna keep living now.

You can ask me and I will answer. Im not goung to ctb anymore.

I hope your journey is a positive one.

 

[Arrow]

Live bro

 

[Hateyouprolife]

Live bro

Gonna do it. I not only feel, but am more clear now. Got used to living as different person.

 

[RockBot]

Trust me, they will. I managed to not sync thoughts with reality, but reality with my thoughts

That's the problem for me; I sync reality with my thoughts.

I need to unsync with reality completely. And then I'll be just dandy.

 

[Arrow]

Gonna do it. I not only feel, but am more clear now. Got used to living as different person.

That's great. You know, it's been a while since I used this forum, and back when I was here last I think my posts were more in support of dying or whatever, but recently now that I have returned, i think life is important, and that living is valuable even if I still think about suicide or don't think I can carry on. i think that despite it being painful, we should want and should try to stay alive. I hope this doesn't come across as too prolifey or something, I'm not saying people who actually do still wanna die are completely wrong or delusional because I've been there, but I have also had this change of heart, even though my own life is getting worse, and the future is more uncertain now than it used to be.
if you're still leaving the site, i just wanna say i hope you live long and enjoy it as much as possible. hopefully you don't ctb, hopefully things remain clear for you, hopefully it goes well. i am going to try to hang on as well.

 

[Hateyouprolife]

That's great. You know, it's been a while since I used this forum, and back when I was here last I think my posts were more in support of dying or whatever, but recently now that I have returned, i think life is important, and that living is valuable even if I still think about suicide or don't think I can carry on. i think that despite it being painful, we should want and should try to stay alive. I hope this doesn't come across as too prolifey or something, I'm not saying people who actually do still wanna die are completely wrong or delusional because I've been there, but I have also had this change of heart, even though my own life is getting worse, and the future is more uncertain now than it used to be.
if you're still leaving the site, i just wanna say i hope you live long and enjoy it as much as possible. hopefully you don't ctb, hopefully things remain clear for you, hopefully it goes well. i am going to try to hang on as well.

One thing I can promise is I will never ctb. Gonna live expectional and long life.

 

[Hateyouprolife]

If I hadnt photo evidence of this allz I coul
dnt believe it myself. Its really crazy how from waiting for sleep is replaced with waiting a new morning, new adventures!

 

[Hateyouprolife]

My life has completely changed by now. I guess I am not going to leave, but hang on in the recovery section to help others. Feel free to om or ask anything here.