suicidesheep31
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- Jun 27, 2020
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I feel useless. I am a waste. I am old. I am ugly. Yes, I am a woman. I think I am not lovable.
One of my brother died because my mother hurt her belly while she was pregnant of him.
She did the same for me. First question, why I did not die?
I though for years that she did it because she did not want me. But it was only due to conflict between my parents.
I born with dislocation of the hips, strabismus and cystes.
The GP asked what happened lol? He never knew that this fucking mother was hitting her fucking belly to shut up my father jalousy.
Then, i was neglected emotionally, then hit by my mother. My father was not there anymore.
He was in love with a prostitute and was hope to save her. He did it somehow .
Men abused me. i was naive.
I discovered the father of my boyfriend hanging in his living room. i should not complain because i did not have to cut the rope. My boyfriend did it and he was cryiing every night then.
I went away.
Trying to recover. I attempted several time without succeding.
I now have N and SN.
I was watching people jumping under a train.
I was in asilum, with criminals explaining me how they killed a man, scalped him and throw him in the river.
I was hit by one of them. I saw a pedoplhle masturbating in front of the TV. I saw a disabled person hitting her head on the wall.
The world is going bad. I dnt like what I saw.
I was in the street without money. Without food. without help.
Sorry for venting. Today, I have more than I ever had. But I am not happy. I am not at peace.
I woke up this morning with the image of someone with a gun behind my head.
I was just saying "fire it, "press the button"
One of my brother died because my mother hurt her belly while she was pregnant of him.
She did the same for me. First question, why I did not die?
I though for years that she did it because she did not want me. But it was only due to conflict between my parents.
I born with dislocation of the hips, strabismus and cystes.
The GP asked what happened lol? He never knew that this fucking mother was hitting her fucking belly to shut up my father jalousy.
Then, i was neglected emotionally, then hit by my mother. My father was not there anymore.
He was in love with a prostitute and was hope to save her. He did it somehow .
Men abused me. i was naive.
I discovered the father of my boyfriend hanging in his living room. i should not complain because i did not have to cut the rope. My boyfriend did it and he was cryiing every night then.
I went away.
Trying to recover. I attempted several time without succeding.
I now have N and SN.
I was watching people jumping under a train.
I was in asilum, with criminals explaining me how they killed a man, scalped him and throw him in the river.
I was hit by one of them. I saw a pedoplhle masturbating in front of the TV. I saw a disabled person hitting her head on the wall.
The world is going bad. I dnt like what I saw.
I was in the street without money. Without food. without help.
Sorry for venting. Today, I have more than I ever had. But I am not happy. I am not at peace.
I woke up this morning with the image of someone with a gun behind my head.
I was just saying "fire it, "press the button"
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