Venting I am going insane. I am losing my FUCKing mind. How the FUCK is this real!?

[zekeyaeger]

It's like I am stuck in the fourth circle of hell. I cannot escape. I can't die, it's an eternal fucking limbo. SOME hope comes from me, like the SN method, and then I see that I can't get the meds that are required with it, Antiemetics and other stuff. I am losing my mind, I think I am going to actually say goodbye to the last remnants of sanity in me. I wish I was put down like an animal. That would be better than this existence.

 

[Marco77]

I understand you. Life is a condition of extreme suffering and sometimes reaches unbearable levels. It's the damned pro-lifers who lock us in that Limbo.

 

[zekeyaeger]

I understand you. Life is a condition of extreme suffering and sometimes reaches unbearable levels. It's the damned pro-lifers who lock us in that Limbo.

A humane, non-savage society would have a right to die. It's 2024 and people have to resort to fucked methods to escape this hell. Plainly unhinged, if you ask me.

 

[Marco77]

A humane, non-savage society would have a right to die. It's 2024 and people have to resort to fucked methods to escape this hell. Plainly unhinged, if you ask me.

We are treated like animals. Forced to live until the owner decides it's time for the slaughter.

 

[zekeyaeger]

We are treated like animals. Forced to live until the owner decides it's time for the slaughter.

I hope we both find peace and freedom one day, as soon as possible.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

you don't technically need the other drugs for success re SN. just SN and water and a proper way to measure.

i'm aware that x drug is important for some gastric aspect but it's stated clearly in the pph that the drugs are mainly meant to ease side affects.

just my two cents. sorry you're feeling like this for real reach out if you'd like

 

[alienfreak]

Maybe this isnt real and its a nightmare. I dont understand how it can be real. Nothing seems as it should be

 

[zekeyaeger]

Maybe this isnt real and its a nightmare. I dont understand how it can be real. Nothing seems as it should be

This, pretty much this. I can't FAthom that this is real.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

Sometimes I think this IS really hell.

 

[alienfreak]

Sometimes I think this IS really hell.

It is truly possible

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

It is truly possible

Or some kind of purgatory and if you were good in your last life your life is decent here. If you were bad in your past life, well here we are suffering and tortured.

 

[Trav1989]

We are treated like animals. Forced to live until the owner decides it's time for the slaughter.

Generally decided by an "accidental" opioid overdose in a nursing home once the bills pile up enough for the family.

 

[alienfreak]

Sometimes I think this IS really hell.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

…why the fourth circle?

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so trapped in this cruel existence, to me it's just feels so painful how I cannot just peacefully die to escape from all the suffering. I certainly get that it's so dreadful and torturous feeling stuck here, I also just wish to be gone but anyway I hope that you find the peace you search for.