After coming to the point of CTB, am now envious of all people Who are alone because they don't have anyone who are dependent on them.. I wish I was alone so that I could go with CTB at peace..
Same here. I live with my parents and they got their eyes on everything. These thin walls make it hard for me.
I longed for romantic love and companionship so long after being lonely in an abusive relationship.. but now I just wish no one knew me and I was totally alone because I would ctb instantly. No one is dependent on me financially but my mom and partner love me and try so hard its so deeply depressing I'll leave them. I have stayed alive for years just for others and I can't take much more.
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It's a Catch 22 situation. Part of the reason I'm leaving is because I'm all alone.
I've been in both situation. I can tell you honestly neither is preferable.
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
Both of these are true for me as well. I think I'm miserable either way and I no longer consider this a factor behind my mental health/mindset.
Agreed. I've been alone for two years following my divorce and the loneliness is killing me. Probably wouldn't be in this situation if I were still married. (The divorce wasn't my choice.)
Cherrypea
I remember when all this will be again
- May 3, 2020
- 414
Seems the grass is always greener.... I resent my partner and children as they are stopping me from ctb.
ImReady
Member
- Aug 26, 2020
- 15
same. I don't wanna hurt the people who care about me. but they just don't understand that this is what I need to do.
Tigeress Lost
Lost Tigeress In A Human Body
- Jul 30, 2020
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Enlightened
- Jun 4, 2020
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I'm completely alone. I've been (happily) divorced for over ten years and had always been on my own before I was married. I was alone when I was married (awhile he was out cheating since shortly after we were married). Fast forward 12 years and since March, I've cut off all of my friends so I'm all alone now, just planning my Bus Trip. But I'm an introvert (INTJ) so I only get lonely a few times a week, especially being unemployed. It's a wrenching feeling to long for people. I would choose anything over it.
