I am catching the bus tonight. This is my goodbye thread.

[Crystal Labeija]

I just finished printing and envolping (is that even a word? LOL) my suicide notes. I drank one beer all my SI is gone. I know it is ill-advised, but I'm alcoholic and my stomach has always been strong. I have faith in myself. Worst case scenario, I'll pass out and choke on my vomit. Besides. How different are two--three beers from benzos?

I just realized my antacids are chewable. I tried to avoid this at the pharmacy. Terrible branding, but it's too late at this point.

I finished drafting my final note to family and instructions to my landlord. I'm doing schedule mailing so they would receive it roughly 10 hours I CTB (I tested it). I have all my stuff. I wore my clothing of choice.

I had to delay my CTB for two hours because I made last minute changes to the notes. But now, I am officially done being a perfectionist about this.

I will stay here for maybe 5-10 minutes after I take the SN, but will log out eventually to avoid being traced here.

A special shoutout to @Stan.

 

[angele]

Good luck! Hope you find your peace <3

 

[Time]

Thanks for being here & sharing this with us. I hope that everything goes peacefully & you make it to a better place.

 

[zeroambition]

I wish you all the best and hope you find the peace you deserve

 

[AnnaJaspers]

Sweet dreams, darling. I'm so sorry it has come to this, but only you and you alone know what is best for you.

 

[realjunes]

I just finished printing and envolping (is that even a word? LOL) my suicide notes. I drank one beer all my SI is gone. I know it is ill-advised, but I'm alcoholic and my stomach has always been strong. I have faith in myself. Worst case scenario, I'll pass out and choke on my vomit. Besides. How different are two--three beers from benzos?

I just realized my antacids are chewable. I tried to avoid this at the pharmacy. Terrible branding, but it's too late at this point.

I finished drafting my final note to family and instructions to my landlord. I'm doing schedule mailing so they would receive it roughly 10 hours I CTB (I tested it). I have all my stuff. I wore my clothing of choice.

I had to delay my CTB for two hours because I made last minute changes to the notes. But now, I am officially done being a perfectionist about this.

I will stay here for maybe 5-10 minutes after I take the SN, but will log out eventually to avoid being traced here.

A special shoutout to @Stan.

Crystal - I just now found your post. I don't know you, but since we meet here, on this forum, I feel I do know you and
wish for you your long desired relief from suffeing.

 

[less than]

I'm sorry that your life has led you to this. We all respect your choice. I hope all things goes well for you, whatever will happen.

 

[Crystal Labeija]

Thank you all for the messages. <3

I can't believe it's actually happening. I'm currenting dancing to this song that most people think is weird and funny, but I actually think it's a meticulous masterpiece. Yma Sumac was one of the greatest vocalists in history. And this song belongs to a genre of music called exotica, which is about making bizarre music. I just think this song ecasplates my life: dramatic, yet unapologetically weird:

 

[letmeseethedeath]

safe travel my friend go get your eternal peace i'm joining you soon

 

[realjunes]

Thank you all for the messages. <3

I can't believe it's actually happening. I'm currenting dancing to this song that most people think is weird and funny, but I actually think it's a meticulous masterpiece. Yma Sumac was one of the greatest vocalists in history. And this song belongs to a genre of music called exotica, which is about making bizarre music. I just think this song ecasplates my life: dramatic, yet unapologetically weird:

Dance away, darling. I never heard of exotica but it is bizzaare and fablulous, I am listeingting now. Which means you are fabulous. Thank you for sharing this with us, it describes your charachter.

 

[Meant2Die]

I'm sorry I didn't see you mention when you are planning on doing it, but I don't think I will be here. Wishing you the best of luck and to have a quick and peaceful transition.

 

[lavenderlungs]

sounds like you are happy and accepting of your choice. i'm glad you're feeling positive about your final chapter closing.

sweet dreams

 

[Morphosis]

Just wanted to say I love your name, profile pic, hilarious signature ("I know I'm great, darling.....") and the fact that you are dancing... not trying to talk you out of it when your mind is made up, but I just feel the world will be a much sadder place without such a unique, interesting, fabulous individual. We need more people like you not less.
I'm sorry you have reached the point of no return and hope you find peace.

 

[Stan]

Sorry to have missed you. Hope you had a peaceful journey.

 

[MeltingHeart]

I liked that song they posted, how amazing to have a last little dance too, rip.

 

[JimFord99]

Sorry, crystal-labeija, sad to see you go. Hope all goes well, maybe we'll meet again on the dark side of the moon.

 

[WilliamKline]

Thank you all for the messages. <3

I can't believe it's actually happening. I'm currenting dancing to this song that most people think is weird and funny, but I actually think it's a meticulous masterpiece. Yma Sumac was one of the greatest vocalists in history. And this song belongs to a genre of music called exotica, which is about making bizarre music. I just think this song ecasplates my life: dramatic, yet unapologetically weird:

Chrystal safe travels and may you either find delightful nothingness or delicious afterlife if you wish for it.

And I can't believe you posted this song, I love it and been looking for it for such a long time!

 

[Nem]

I wish you an anxiety free departure, all the best in your decision

 

[Soul]

Love and light to you, Crystal x

 

[PDAnnie2610]

Safe travels and may you achieve peace...

 

[GIRL502Hopelessness]

good trip

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

My love to you, Crystal.. So sorry to have missed you, but hoping your trip wasn't too bumpy.. x

 

[6000qqq]

Good luck on the other side. I hope you find what you're looking for ♡

 

[Essence]

Peace and love to you my friend. See you on the other side