Story I am a horrible human being [Snapping due to jealousy]

[decayofangels]

Recently I snapped towards the one person who makes me feel human. I got almost jealous over them talking to other people and turned my frustration onto them. I suggested I stop talking to them at all considering they are a good person, and they didn't want that. The argument snowballed into me assuming I deserved them to be mean to me considering they never were, even when I was mean to them. I begged for them to be mean, genuinely begged like a pathetic person and they wouldn't do it. I promised to cut for them or put their name into my skin, and the response I got in exact words was, "What the actual fuck is wrong with you" I realized I went too far and stopped talking to them.
They are an amazing person, and I didn't mean to disturb them, and I know they deserve better. I'm not sharing this for anyone to tell me i'm terrible, as I already know, but you're all free to share thoughts, I just needed to put this somewhere.

 

[murdersuicide]

real af but i do agree with them that the fansigning is a bit excessive of a response. don't beat yourself up too much tho, it happens :)

 

[Nitheful]

Did similar shit to the only person I was ever close to. I suppose I became so emotionally dependent on them that I needed to be around them 24/7 and the very thought of them not being there made me suicidal. It was obsession more than love and I became very possessive. I knew I was wrong, but I couldn't help it. Felt I found something I'd never find again and wanted to hold onto it desperately. Ended up getting ghosted eventually after I said some horrible and frankly psychotic things after the realization that she was really going settled in. I don't know if I miss her, but I miss how she made me feel. Maybe I'd feel that way with anyone who gave me genuine attention and attempts at understanding me.

real af but i do agree with them that the fansigning is a bit excessive of a response. don't beat yourself up too much tho, it happens :)

What manga is that image from btw?

 

[murdersuicide]

What manga is that image from btw?

downfall by inio asano

https://myanimelist.net/manga/104272/Reiraku?q=downfall&cat=manga

 

[endlessmelancholy]

It's ok. It happens. As long as they don't have a problem it's fine