I am 21 years old male I been a Hiki _ NEET since the age of 11 due to chronic anxiety which got a lot better for me in the past year and now i want to change and find a way to make a living since I live in a third world country i fear going homeless or starving death and have to eat from the garbage, there are no social workers to feed the homeless and that is a fate I want to avoid, my plan is to start by going outside more and more regularly on a daily basis and stay at my brother*s store for some hours a day since he needs someone to watch the store when he is off for sometime everyday, i do not know what i will do after that i may work with my brother since it soundslike a good chance for me in several ways, but for now I will make it step by step, but I am afraid of what will happen after that, it is all that is in my mind all these days, i never been in school since the age of 11 and i am scared of the world of * being a normal human being * considering that I have spent TOO many years in Isolation,
I have made this thread to see if there is anyone in a similar situation to mine and to vent to relieve the stress I been having.
Hi, I missed thirty days of school in fifth grade and then another thirty of so in sixth and was removed to be "homeschooled". I received pretty much no schooling at all. Homeschool is a nuclear option on someone's life and to homeschool them is to take the responsibility of an entire school facility so if you have any guilt towards yourself know you deserve little. I had pretty massive anxiety at fourteen and a bit older as well, my mother at one point suggested I go to a psychiatrist for autism telling me that she obviously didn't think I had autism, but my anxiety could get me diagnosed and money could be made off of that because of the context of parents being rewarded financially for disabled children. (never really went, but I find it kind of degrading that was an option but never anything else for the anxiety)
I have no high school transcripts myself, my first attempt of suicide at sixteen was to try to avoid what I saw as my fate from being homeschooled and my lack of ability to get myself to self teach myself everything I needed by eighteen. Originally I planned on blowing my brains out at eighteen with a shotgun but at point it was simply emotionally escalating in a way that I felt leaving earlier would be harm reduction. I am now twenty one as well actually, and I've never had a job or further schooling. I'm pretty sorry to hear your situation, it's been pretty rare to see neets in a similar situation from childhood. I've always found it somewhat maybe not emotionally funny but funny in a novelty sense that neets who are are twenty at best and managed to get through schooling perfectly adequately boasting or venting about neetdom in comparison to someone in a position of neetdom from childhood. The situation of being stuck in a situation like this from childhood is not one that is societally talked about much at all, and I imagine even worse for you in a third world country. I'm afraid I can't really help too much with your anxiety, but perhaps if possible the job might be a decent idea? If it's a part time basis and not degrading emotionally from others it can help with exposure to a degree.
You mentioned you were in a third world country so I'm not sure how possible this is, but maybe trying to get a microphone and getting into some online game like tabletop simulator which should be casual enough to not be openly hostile, and to perhaps to help work you in socially before thrusting you fully into the world? I haven't tried that myself, but not being a psychologist or otherwise I can't really think of something to possibly help anxiety other than affirming experiences that you expose yourself to. Otherwise maybe introduce it after the job?
I think for the anxiety you might have a decent chance if you still desire social belonging and otherwise, I ended up just largely not desiring at this point -- my mother warned the two people who ended up staying at the house for a time briefly (my sisters online boyfriend, and otherwise a person my mother knew from selling plasma) that I likely didn't care how their day went and that I likely wouldn't greet them. I didn't find that out until after the fact, but I suppose it's not inaccurate even if I still experience anxiety with thrust into a situation with others -- though not as bad as when I was younger. Sorry as well if you weren't homeschooled, but rather pulled out with no other option. I think it's similar enough regardless, not a neet in the eyes of society when I was younger technically, but of course automatically one when I was eighteen despite no change in my situation or to show academically transcripts or otherwise.
Sorry if this isn't helpful or written poorly.
