I always feel either anxious or depressed and both are unbearable

[Sanva]

for fucks sake, i've been trying to get better, I've been meditating and eating enough again and I've been trying to make friends but it just fucking sucks because when I try to talk to people I get so fucking anxious that I don't even want to get up in the mornings but when I don't I feel so depressed and I can never just fucking be okay. I just want to feel happy. I want to be normal. I just want something good to happen for once, why is that so fucking much to ask. I'm so sick of trying. I need to do it soon, I can't live like this anymore.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life is very tiring. I'm sorry you are in this situation. I understand that it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[milly]

O yeah it is so exhausting. Get well soon

 

[SanctionedSquad]

I feel you bro, most of my friends are online friends cause I usually get bullied all the time in real life, I hate it when those losers call me fat or ugly or punch me.
Maybe you should try finding friends on discord or reddit who have the same interests as you.

For the depression, I hate that feeling too, I loved it to play ocarina of time as a kid but as I got older my only hobby stopped making fun, I played ocarina of time yesterday again and I am just sitting infront of my pc like a living corpse without joy, it just helps me a bit to not get insane.

I hate social interactions too, I skip school as much as I can.