Hurting, wrecked, spinning

[nextstepdeath]

I don't know how to go. I don't know how to push myself over. I want to go. I hate my life. I will drink myself to death if I carry on. I will never stop going in circles. I had a chance once. Life was.a possibility once. But over the course of my time I got it all wrong, I always managed to screw up by default and people who didn't have much to give got the opportunities I could have got. It's all over now. I'm not entitled, I don't believe life owes me anything. I am so drunk. I am thinking of overdosing. Because I am so drunk I am thinking the overdose will be more effective, will hit harder and kill me off. I am very down, I have lost my life.