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Anxieyote

Anxieyote

Sobriety over everything else • 31 • Midwest
Mar 24, 2021
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My brain shouldn't have the capacity to experience sadness at the level that it does, or process things like "the bigger picture". It's aware of too many things that aren't advantageous for survival; at least not mine. The fact that it can consider suicide seems like a fatal flaw in and of itself.

Intelligence and understanding are an absolute curse.

I'm safe. I have a home. I have access to food and water. Therefore, I should be content. I should be like a parakeet—content and happy to live my life out in this protective cage.

But the brain just continues to process and overthink, and wonder what could be, what should have been, what I could have done differently…it's destroying itself.

Faulty wiring. I need brain surgery to remove the parts that are causing me pain. They serve no purpose, and I know I could be happy if those parts were turned off altogether.
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
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I'm safe. I have a home. I have access to food and water. Therefore, I should be content.
Biology wants us to procreate as well, no? Makes no sense evolutionarily for organisms to be content without cooming in each other.
 
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Ijustwantpeace

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Biology wants us to procreate as well, no? Makes no sense evolutionarily for organisms to be content without cooming in each other.
This is what it is. If evolution made us content being alone humanity would have never survived.

Depression and suffering is 99% because of social issues. Our brains are hardwired to be part of a tribe, and if theres a rift it fucks us up mentally, without us even realizing. Fuck being human.
 
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Anxieyote

Anxieyote

Sobriety over everything else • 31 • Midwest
Mar 24, 2021
444
Biology wants us to procreate as well, no? Makes no sense evolutionarily for organisms to be content without cooming in each other.
Which is why those of us who aren't cooming and don't want to subject another human to our personal vices should be able to shut off the parts of the brain that want that.

It's not fair that my brain's self-destruct sequence is activating when all of my other needs are being met just fine.
 
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deflationary

deflationary

Fussy exister. Living in the epilogue
Mar 11, 2020
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A bit too much or a bit too little. If we were smarter or had more agency, that could go a long way towards making life more manageable as well. Instead we're stuck in this middle ground of worst of both worlds.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I see it as better to never exist in the first place. We were all fine not existing until we were forced to live. I hate being human. Our own thoughts can torture us. The fact that we are programmed to survive is one of the worst things for me, it makes it difficult to exit this world.
 
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existtosuffer

existtosuffer

Student
Sep 22, 2021
150
Being taught that survival was love fucked me up as a child.
 
SentientCreature

SentientCreature

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Mar 16, 2021
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Makes no sense evolutionarily for organisms to be content without cooming in each other.
Makes no sense evolutionarily for organisms to be content after cooming in each other either. Believing that such transitory experiences will lead to happiness is what's evolutionarily advantageous. But as a sad boi once sad - "Shortly after copulation, the devil's laughter is heard".
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
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Makes no sense evolutionarily for organisms to be content after cooming in each other either. Believing that such transitory experiences will lead to happiness is what's evolutionarily advantageous.
The need to breed is then replaced by the (in our societies, person-dependent) less hardcore/painful need to look after offspring. Hence why parents are usually not as horny and incel-ish. When contraceptives aren't used it's not really a transitory experience like eating food, the act then changes your mode of being for the rest of your life.

By having children the parents shield themselves for some of the brutality of nature, with the child acting as the shield.
 
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SentientCreature

SentientCreature

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The need to breed is then replaced by the (in our societies, person-dependent) less hardcore/painful need to look after offspring. Hence why parents are usually not as horny and incel-ish. When contraceptives aren't used it's not really a transitory experience like eating food, the act then changes your mode of being for the rest of your life.

By having children the parents shield themselves for some of the brutality of nature, with the child acting as the shield.
That is true. If it results in conception it can be a life-changing experience, for women more so than men though, but I won't go into that as it's not exactly clear where humans naturally fall on the tournament vs pair-bonding spectrum.

Either way, with the changes in society and technological advancement parental investment is becoming less direct and involved as it is delegated to various institutions. So I'm not sure how much longer parenting will be able to satisfy people and control their need to seek out new occupations and sources of pleasure.
 
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