Hugs

[Nem]

Hi all, I hope everyone is hanging in there still and huge hug to the people we have lost. I have a few reasons why I'm still here and I'm just torn apart by feelings of death and the effects it will have on others, a close friend of mine would be devastated by me ctb and they know I'm at the edge daily. I can't seem to keep going and I have lost so much, I am really sad that my life got damaged by meds and how I handled it makes me ticked off at myself.

Do you have that feeling like there's no way out of this but down yet it feels so cold knowing that's possibly the bitter reality? I'm beside myself right now, I barely can get put of bed and cannot even believe that I'm still working through all of this.

Hugs all

 

[Time]

Hey, Nem. I'm sorry to hear that. For me, I think that ctb is the only/best thing to do. However the effects my ctb will have on those close to me is a very painful part of my decision.

 

[Shivani]

I feel the same way as you both, I am torn between my strong desire to end my misery and the pain I would be causing my loved one's. I spent the entire last night crying thinking of the aftermath of my CTB. I am very scared that this is making me weak. I wish all this ends in its own. It's just wishful thinking. Hope I could find peace

 

[lymbo]

everytyme l see your cute dog CJ l smyle, sure he loves you alot