Help HOW?

[AnonymousL]

Please someone
Let me know how one is expected to live when there's just these huge cycles of depression.
How am I gonna keep doing this till I'm 80?

There's just these huge cycles of dark thoughts of crying every second of every day of not enjoying the things I used to love.
What is supposed to keep me here and keep me going through it if those things aren't enough?

I don't wanna necessarily die, I jut can't live like this anymore.

I had meds, 5 different psychologists and 1 I have been seeing for 6 years now.
Multiple psychiatrists
I've been admitted for 12 weeks and had constant therapy.
I had crisis teams come over several weeks for multiple times.
What else can I do?

It's too much. I can't do this anymore.

 

[Jadeith]

I'm sorry you are going through all this. Can't say that i know how you feel, tho in my case also darkness comes in waves.
As for the question... all i can offer is a virtual hug You already did and tried more than i ever tried to do with myself.
Only glimmers of solace (because i wouldn't call it hope) i get is when i make myself useful. When i successfully support someone. Those are only sparks in overwhelming shadow but they do happen and make existence a tiny bit less unbearable, at least for a while.

 

[itsgone2]

It's too much. I can't do this anymore.

It became too much for me. I hope better for you. Not sure what else you could do

 

[xBrialesana]

I understand….. and the fact that some people have no concept of living like this and say they couldn't even FATHOM being that depressed? Boggles my mind tbh. I feel we have to; MUST be built so much stronger than those people. For why? I don't know. Maybe some of us were meant to take this unending pain to do something good with it. Help others who are suffering in some capacity. The ones that have the strength for this. I sure as hell don't but the ones that do I really feel must be the strongest fuckers on this earth.