how youll be acknowledged post-ctb

[sanctionedusage]

it feels so awkward to think about

sometimes my sibling will mention telling their friends about me, whom ive never spoken to, and its so weird knowing that random strangers know me while i know nothing about them

and then one day it wont be 'sanctionedusage called me retarded shes being mean' itll be 'sanctionedusage just killed herself'

'it was a suicide'

'my sister hanged herself last night'

like shit. what a dark mood killer




and knowing i'll be used as a source of pity & leniency. needing time off work, 'my daughter passed away.'

'its been hard since my kid committed suicide,'

'sorry for my __, my daughter committed suicide last month.'



im glad im out of high school. the number of bitches that'd use me to get an extension on their papers is comical.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I do wonder about it but then, it's so difficult to really judge what people will think or say. Part of me thinks they would be shocked but then, I can also see some people saying- there were always signs. I can't even really figure out if people will be sad or more pro-choice about it.

 

[srilankanbeyotch]

Im gonna leave a note and that would be it. They could interpret and acknowledge it however they want that best fits my ending in their perspective but only I know what the real meaning is. Plus when im dead, nothing will matter anymore.

 

[Realog11]

Im gonna leave a note and that would be it. They could interpret and acknowledge it however they want that best fits my ending in their perspective but only I know what the real meaning is. Plus when im dead, nothing will matter anymore.

I thought about leaving a note decided not to, but maybe I should leave a note

 

[srilankanbeyotch]

I thought about leaving a note decided not to, but maybe I should leave a note

Its really up to your decision. I choose to leave a note since I know my family would want to blame it on someone opening a homicide investigation or something even though my CTB method would be an obvious case of suicide (SN)

 

[Realog11]

Its really up to your decision. I choose to leave a note since I know my family would want to blame it on someone opening a homicide investigation or something even though my CTB method would be an obvious case of suicide (SN)

Where will you put the note?

 

[srilankanbeyotch]

Where will you put the note?

Im ctbng in a hotel so probably somewhere there at a table

 

[Exhausted546]

My family honestly wouldn't deserve me to leave a note. They'd dismiss my words even in death and go with their own narrative. My death would be taking agency and peace over my life for once

 

[StupidCat]

Pretty much like a retard who did a retarded thing

 

[Forveleth]

People can use me to get time off work all they want. The amount of devastation they will feel as a result if my death is well worth bring used as an excuse.

 

[jenson]

Ehh I don't think it matters. I've thought about it for a while but why would people's opinions matter after you are dead. Like people who worry about deleting their browser history or the effect it will have on their friends/family or whatever, its not like you will be able to care when its all said and done. Thats what makes ctb so great, nothing matters after as long as you succeed.

 

[peacefulsleepnow]

Ehh I don't think it matters. I've thought about it for a while but why would people's opinions matter after you are dead. Like people who worry about deleting their browser history or the effect it will have on their friends/family or whatever, its not like you will be able to care when its all said and done. Thats what makes ctb so great, nothing matters after as long as you succeed.

This. Exactly.

 

[perishsong]

While none of that matters once we're dead, it still feels so embarrassing to imagine when still alive I can almost hear the nauseating "oh no perishsong killed itself, it's gone too soon, wish we listened to it earlier sobsobsobsobsob" coming from the fakest people imaginable.

 

[mychois]

Ehh I don't think it matters. I've thought about it for a while but why would people's opinions matter after you are dead. Like people who worry about deleting their browser history or the effect it will have on their friends/family or whatever, its not like you will be able to care when its all said and done. Thats what makes ctb so great, nothing matters after as long as you succeed.

It is greater when you know from your solitude that your death won't trouble anyone.

 

[Sphinxi]

I hope that I am remembered well. I doubt anyone will be surprised, and people will probably be slow to find out, as I don't maintain contact with anyone anymore. I think anyone that knew me intimately knew that I had my mind set on suicide ever since I was a young child. I have some unfinished writing, mostly my thoughts on philosophy, but also an incomplete memoir. Maybe somebody will make use or meaning out of that.
I don't think it's wise to delete your history, or to not leave behind a note. Anyone who wants to know about you should be able to.

 

[guessilldie]

I'll be the gossip at work for like a day and then hopefully forgotten within a week

 

[kuroshimi]

I think about it from time to time. It doesn't matter anyway, when you're already gone, but thinking about it still feels awkward. As already mentioned, the "it's gone too soon, wish we listened to it earlier blahblahblah" thing is really embarrassing.

At least I hope I can leave something behind and it will make things a little easier for everyone.

 

[Baisley]

I would be remembered as I can't believe she did that. She must have been outta her mind. And of course gossip and some people saying how dumb it was ECT..