How would you spend your last moments?

[Blazo]

Title is self explanatory, lets say you physically have your chosen method of suicide available and you are preparing for specific date, time, and last activity before you off yourself, what would it be?

For me a date would likely be the day of a scheduled therapy appointment, I fucking hate therapists as they have locked me in a corner of either showing up to appointments or ill be sent to a psych ward. Time would likely be around night as I have always been a night person. Last activity would likely be finalizing my letter to the people in my life, while eating lots of junk food, maybe smoke weed for the last time, and then ultimately crying cause life has treated me this way, and finally doing the deed of course. I know its boring but what else is there to do?

 

[Fly🦋]

i would cut my hair look in the mirror and see the closest i will ever get to looking like a boy. Smoke some weed while surfing on here. Edit my paper suicide note for my family. Then i would post my suicide note on here. i would cry because i am this depressed and selfish for leaving my few friends. i would look at the replies on my suicide note for a few minutes. i would burn myself, cut myself and think of all the bad and good memories i have had. i would pray to a God that may or may not exist and say " please take me, please let it work, let my family and friends be happy and forget me. Don't take me to heaven and please don't take me to hell, i just want to watch over them and sleep with the stars. please take me" hopefully if a God is real he will listen to my last death wish.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I have plans to do very touristy things in my chosen location in the days before hand, eat a good meal, gonna try psychedelics for the first time. As for the actual moment, I hope to have some good music playing, hopefully my ctb partner by my side. A note left on the door warning whoever comes in to check on us, I plan to leave some notes beside me for people as well.

 

[xXSarac3nSlay3rXx]

I want to spend my last moments unconscious and dying.

 

[Nemeshisu]

I am not sure. I don't have any plans for that day. I don't feel there would be much to do except prepare to CTB. All i know is that I want to die while looking at stars and holding my CTB partner hand. But it's nothing more than a dream. I may aswell do it all alone.

 

[PartingGlass]

I think I've thought about this more than anything else. Even as miserable as I am, I still don't think I could do it alone. I want to go with a partner, a girl maybe met on here in the partners thread. Maybe we'd go somewhere far from here and rent a nice hotel room. Then we'd spend a few days trying to have fun and doing things we've always wanted to. Eventually if we decided that we were going to do it, we'd probably spend our last moments laying together before shooting ourselves. I know it's probably just a fantasy but I don't wanna spend my last days being sad and lonely. I've had enough of that.

 

[SylvaanBanaan]

Id really like to travel somewhere, not the other side of the planet but definitely far away enough to make me feel the foreign environment :')

Would stay there for one day maybe two, have some great food, engage in some relaxing activities like say a museum visit or a walk through the woods, or make music somewhere, somehow, i dont know. Make sure i spend my money at least.

Then id like to just lay down in the middle of nowhere and wait for the moon and the stars to rise, where ill be going.

Poof

 

[OvertheRainbeaux]

For me, I'd definitely do my hair and make up really nice and wear a really nice outfit (I really want to leave behind a beautiful corpse as possible as I can for some reason) that is extremely important too me.

I may or may not go on a few dates/hookups with various men that I have turned down in the past just because I've been nervous, but I'm not 100% sure if I'd do that.

Definitely smoke some weed.

Write a letter explaining why I feel the way I feel, how I've tried to get help and that I'm sorry to anyone I may have hurt.

I'd go deep deep into some forest/woods chill there for a while until I eventually die.

there's probably more I'd do that I can't think of right now but that's pretty much the gist of how I imagine the last moments of my life.

 

[APharmaDestroyedLife]

To be 100% honest, I want to pass away naturally , in a warm bed surrounded by friends and family.

The reality is, I don't know... But if I get on the bus that goes out of town and doesnt return, I would like to be with my dog, listening to Nick Cave, or Jeff Buckley. Mainly being at peace as I pass, no anxiety or survival instinct making it horrible, just Blissfully drifting off into Oblivion

 

[Sensei]

I will probably act on impulse so there won't really be any last moments. If I'll manage to leave in an orderly fashion, I'll spend my last moments meditating, trying to empty my mind and feel at peace.

 

[Taki]

I'm in this site because what I ended up with in life fell so short of what I could have achieved, so I doubt I'll have many options for my final moments either.

Alone and terrified? Sounds likely.

 

[Jean4]

I'm in this site because what I ended up with in life fell so short of what I could have achieved, so I doubt I'll have many options for my final moments either.

Alone and terrified? Sounds likely.

No. You will not be alone. You will always have us.

 

[PwincessStepford]

I would probably spend it age regressing and playing with my cat. It's the only act of joy I have.

 

[Finis Autem Spero]

Optimally? In the midst of an opiate overdose somewhere no one will find me.

Most likely? Bleeding to death somewhere no one will find me.

 

[Moonicide]

If I had the means I'd travel before I ctb, but what I'm currently doing is eating delicious food, playing video games, watching shows, and giving my pet all the love and cuddles. Which isn't so bad either.

 

[charlottewilts]

ideally zonk out with a needle sticking out my arm.
since that's not possible, i'll lay down and listen to my favourite songs. reminisce about better times.