A boy in the same grade, different class, at my high school ctb some time ago. I remember the day that our class' mentor shared this news. Everyone was silent when we heard the news—a few girls started to tear a little. After class, a lot of rumors started to spread about possible reasons why he ctb, one of which was that he was bullied a lot. I didn't know him and never really talked with him. But the more I thought about the rumors, the more it started to sink in how he must've felt in the time leading up to his end.
The only moments that I noticed him were during the lunch breaks. My friends and I always stood in the same spot during the breaks in the halls. We had some neighboring friend groups with which we mingled from time to time, but more often not. I remember seeing the boy standing with one of our neighboring friend groups every once in a while. In rare moments, he walked over to us to stand with us. But as far as I noticed, nobody really involved him in the conversations and neither did I. He was just near us. I never really thought anything of him other than that I didn't understand what he was doing/standing with us. Only after he ctb, I realized that he probably tried to connect with us. This I don't know for sure but it sounds logical to me when hearing all the rumors about what happened at the time. Sometimes I thought, what if we had befriended him and made him part of our school group. But those thoughts are a little too late because what happened happened already.
School held a memorial in the church with everyone from our grade where I learned more about him. It was clear that nobody said to have known who bullied him; that nobody expected him to ctb; and that he played the piano beautifully in the video shown at his memorial.
