Ive thought about this for some time. My ctb plan is the gas method, so there will be equipment around etc.
My plan is to be in a bedroom at my parents house...which was my grandparents house. My father grew up in this house.
They are elderly now. I am their only child and they are the only ones I trust.
There is a bed in this room, which I will be on. I'll close the door and put a note on it saying about what I have done....
I will print out some notes about some of my thoughts (which I need to start working on)
I will have photos & objects of things that I value...when I was a child, people that I love, things Ive made, etc
Ive made recordings of my thoughts (about 20+ hours) ...some are therapist sessions that secretly recorded and the others are an autobiography.
I plan on putting these recordings on a CD, flashdrive and on the cloud.
I also plan on having a container with all my legal documents, last will, account information, banking, etc for my family to have.
As far as my own self physically, I'm not sure. Ive thought about wearing minimal clothing since for a funeral they wash you and put on clothes that your family picks out anyway. I guess I will make sure there is clothing picked out for this.
Im worried that the ctb equipment will be scary for them to see though. In my note on the bedroom door I will state the condition of my appearance and to not worry.
I know they will have to call 911, sheriffs office, etc. They will come to their house since this is legal protocol for this sort of thing.
I feel bad for my family to have to endure this. Ive been trying to accept this and be ok with this for sometime...its been a slow process.
I grieve for them almost everyday now.