Everyday for me is just another day of unnecessary suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to never exist ever again, I'm always so tired of being trapped in this existence just waiting to die anyway, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as a mistake, for me eternal sleep truly is all that's desirable, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist and I suffer simply from existing. I personally only hope for non-existence and it's all I could wish for, only ceasing to exist is positive for me and I'd be relieved to be free from the burden of existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for. I truly will always find it so dreadful to exist no matter what, I'd just never wish for any of this, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing even know this existence was so tragically imposed in the first place.
