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ecmnesia

ecmnesia

the only thing humans are equal in is death
Aug 30, 2020
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need some advices on how to take care of myself while I don't cbt (or so that maybe I won't take this path).

I've completely abandoned my college duties, barely take care of higiene, and as of know my biggest problem concerns my physical health. I went to the doctor (cause family pressure) but wasn't able to keep up with treatment, as I didn't even showed him the results, but I am with quite extreme vitamins and nutrients deficiency. I can't eat healthy, nor exercise, or get some sun light....

thanks for reading and trying to help.
 
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LittleJem

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Modafinil can get me out of bed on bad days. It helps dopamine. That's my top tip. Otherwise I'm pretty bedridden. Other than when I have good weed - and most of it doesn't help me anymore.

If you are somewhere you can't afford meds, worth trying St John's Wort which you can buy online/in health food stores.
 
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BPD Barbie

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Oh god I know this feeling all too well. I've really let myself go, especially things like showering and brushing my teeth etc. I just basically have to wait for a day to come where I feel strong enough and able to and then do it. The only advice I can give you is to not be too hard on yourself and not push yourself too far. Set small goals, like today I will brush my teeth or my hair, even if that's all you manage to do you can still feel as if you have achieved something.
 
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This time last year I had neglected everything because it had become clear to me that i was dying. I barely ate, slept less than an hour a night, didn't shave, brush my teeth or wash. Clothes and sheets weren't changed, ever. It was a new house and hadn't been cleaned in what must have been 20 years, so you can imagine what that was like too.
If I'm honest, people on here motivated me to do stuff. Just tiny things, like eat and go to the dentist etc. It was enough to make me start making an effort, even though it felt like wading through mud. I think I was lucky that this happened in spring and that the weather proved to be glorious. I was already virtually housebound despite the lockdown, but a friend on here motivated me to actually leave the house to take some picture for him so he could see the local woods. It got me out, then the weather lead me to gardening and cleaning the house.
At this point, I couldn't stuff. My OCD combined with an innate stubbornness took over and I just plodded along relentlessly, adding one tiny bit of life back at a time. It's been year or so in this house and I've only just found out how to use the cooker properly.
But what started me off before i started getting out, was online gaming. It became an obsession for a while despite everything. I think the nature of building a character helped me start to do the same kind of thing in what was left of my life. I took the OCD and started to use it as a weapon to motivate myself.
 
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