illbeinthegarage
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- Jun 14, 2020
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im going away on somewhat of a holiday soon with some family. how do i get through this trip without impulsively ending my life. the opportunities once i get there to ctb will be endless. a few weeks surrounded by constant reminders of how easy i could end it here. it would be a beautiful place to go and a place i actually considered once to become my final resting place. the thing is, i want to ctb knowing everything is planned and will go smoothly and have my notes prepared. i dont want to go impulsively and leave the people i love with absolutely no explanation or way to find comfort (if they were actually bothered). ive been thinking more seriously recently about how i plan to go. i thought maybe saving up to take a one way trip to somewhere beautiful and end my life there. ive been thinking more in depth about my methods available to me for when i do start making plans. im just rambling now but the point i was trying to make is how do i stop my doing something stupid and impulsive while i am surrounded by things that will trigger my thoughts to do so.
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