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elletaber45

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Oct 1, 2023
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I'm looking for help. I desperately want to ctb by the end of the month - I don't want to face another Christmas alone nor do I want to face the brutal fallout from the U.S. election and thr upcoming Canadian one that will make things for people like me so much worse.

I've tried researching and all options seem so hard to access in Canada. I was planning on Firearm but I have had depression for years and know my application will be denied. There's stories of SN being caught and now our postal service is on strike, and it's very hard to buy inert gas here unless you're a commercial business.

Are there any other Canadians with tips? I really need help and would appreciate any anyone can give.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I personally find it so cruel how painless, guaranteed ways to cease existing are denied, I wish there's the option to simply just cease existing in peace, I really understand just wishing to be free from it all. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom from suffering you search for.
 
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theolivanderroach

theolivanderroach

but, what ends when the symbols shatter?
Sep 20, 2024
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fent od is my preferred method
 
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elletaber45

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Oct 1, 2023
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I personally find it so cruel how painless, guaranteed ways to cease existing are denied, I wish there's the option to simply just cease existing in peace, I really understand just wishing to be free from it all. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom from suffering you search for.
I completely agree. I'm serving no purpose at this point and every day is just suffering - my going away wouldn't affect anyone and should be that person's own choice. Thanks for your kind wishes.
fent od is my preferred method
I honestly would if I knew where to find it
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
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Partial and full suspension are reliable options. Jumping from high enough is almost guaranteed (just don't land on your feet) but overcoming SI is harder here than other methods.
 
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elletaber45

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Oct 1, 2023
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Partial and full suspension are reliable options. Jumping from high enough is almost guaranteed (just don't land on your feet) but overcoming SI is harder here than other methods.
I'm so scared of the panic I might feel in the last few seconds. Does it take long for partial suspension to knock you out? I don't have anywhere high enough for full suspension in my apartment.
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
397
I'm so scared of the panic I might feel in the last few seconds. Does it take long for partial suspension to knock you out? I don't have anywhere high enough for full suspension in my apartment.
If done correctly you will go unconscious very quickly with partial suspension, theoretically within seconds. Testimonies on this forum have varied results but it's easy to mess up and can be difficult to overcome SI (partial is unlike full in that you can definitely back out before you black out).

Here is a guide for more information
Hanging Guide
 
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Alexei_Kirillov

Alexei_Kirillov

Waiting for my next window of opportunity
Mar 9, 2024
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I don't know if the situation has changed, but I was able to purchase SN through DMC back in July without any issues. I used my real name and address. So after the strike is over, that might be an option for you.
 
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katara

katara

tired all the time
Mar 17, 2022
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I'm looking for help. I desperately want to ctb by the end of the month - I don't want to face another Christmas alone nor do I want to face the brutal fallout from the U.S. election and thr upcoming Canadian one that will make things for people like me so much worse.

I've tried researching and all options seem so hard to access in Canada. I was planning on Firearm but I have had depression for years and know my application will be denied. There's stories of SN being caught and now our postal service is on strike, and it's very hard to buy inert gas here unless you're a commercial business.

Are there any other Canadians with tips? I really need help and would appreciate any anyone can give.
i hear mixed responses about MAID, some people say it's easy to get it and others say the opposite. I don't know much about the process like if it's painful or anything because it's so controversial people are vague about info.
 
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elletaber45

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Oct 1, 2023
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I don't know if the situation has changed, but I was able to purchase SN through DMC back in July without any issues. I used my real name and address. So after the strike is over, that might be an option for you.
Thanks. I've been worried that the RCMP or cops might catch it as there's been a couple of horror stories on here with getting checked.
i hear mixed responses about MAID, some people say it's easy to get it and others say the opposite. I don't know much about the process like if it's painful or anything because it's so controversial people are vague about info.
Unfortunately MAID doesn't include mental illness. They are looking at it for 2027 but with the Conservative that's likely to be voted in, they're planning on getting rid of MAID altogether as well as limiting alot of other rights.
 
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Whiskey19

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Nov 28, 2024
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I don't know if the situation has changed, but I was able to purchase SN through DMC back in July without any issues. I used my real name and address. So after the strike is over, that might be an option for you.
Whats DMC?
 
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Alexei_Kirillov

Waiting for my next window of opportunity
Mar 9, 2024
1,048
Thanks. I've been worried that the RCMP or cops might catch it as there's been a couple of horror stories on here with getting checked.
I was worried about that too but IIRC the "welfare checks" only happened to people who bought from sources linked with Kenneth Law.

Whats DMC?
A source for SN. We are not allowed to be more specific.
 
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Roadrunner

Roadrunner

Student
Mar 18, 2024
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I've purchased twice from DMC and never had an issue. The postal strike will make it impossible to get before the end of the year unfortunately. I have meto (another component of the SN method) delayed in the mail. So I too will need to wait till the new year.
 
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noheart

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Mar 14, 2024
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Managed to order insulin online. Should be quick and painless when I am ready.
 
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