Help How to overcome the SI when it comes to taking SN

[Boudika]

Yesterday I tried to ctb with SN. I had everything ready, that day I hardly ate anything. However, survival instinct took over and I spent half an hour holding the SN container, unable to bring myself to open it. Do you know how I can get around this? Maybe there are some drugs that will give me courage to do this?
I know, I'm a coward.

 

[numar]

i got as far as actually drinking it before making myself throw up very quickly. Getting it out into the water quickly seemed easy for me but once I tried to drink it that's when it got hard

 

[tiredone]

Following, as will be soon in same situation.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

When you are really want to leave this world it will be easy for you to drink it. There's nothing rally known how to overcome SI. Imo when you a really ready you will be able to do it.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

I personally have benzos although I once opened the SN one morning, measured 25g of it and that was it. Didn't think too much about it although I didn't go on to drink it but @Praestat_Mori is right, once you are really sure that you want to go, it won't be any issue for you to drink.

 

[ApathyToLife]

Don't mean to encourage anything, but personally I'd just listen to some music while preparing the solution and backup glasses, then I'd chug it down asap without thinking too much. I know for a fact the more you stare at it, the easier it gets for your SI to take over and make you cancel your plans. Wouldn't be worried too much about the taste as it's either 20-30 minutes of slight discomfort VS the rest of my life spent in pain and misery. But you do you, I'm just sharing my plan that's all.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

I know for a fact the more you stare at it, the easier it gets for your SI to take over and make you cancel your plans

1000% agree with that, just staring at it allows so many different thoughts to run through your mind which allows SI to take over.

 

[Chronicoverwhelm]

I'm following too, as I bet my SI will be an issue also.

 

[Gonnerr]

Benzos, weeds, painkillers, music, a perfume or something that smells good is a must to ctb.

Personnally i will use all that , i got all that. Just not set if it will be SN or carbon monoxide in a tent.