I need help making the thoughts stop I hate my head hurting in this way its not physical its mental I can't stop thinking people in my life don't care about me or lonely. Feeling unfulfilled and helpless and I can't stop thinking suicidal thoughts and I wish I didn't feel this way and if someone I care about does something slightly off to me I start feeling so depressed and it hurts even if its small and something like this wouldn't affect other people I don't want my head to keep hurting from little things and I can't shake the feeling that I should be gone. A part of me also wants to be gone because if people do actually care I don't want to experience the pain of when they eventually don't care it would hurt to much and if they do care I should be gone before it goes bad or it ends (White rabbit). I don't want to feel this way or think these things and feel anxious with everyone I meet but they become so extremely important to me fast without a lot of relationship buildup and then its like they matter so much it hurts and im scared of being hated or hurt and I don't know what to do. I hate feeling suicidal and everyone around me wants me gone because I know the thoughts are not true. I don't know how to stop the thoughts or at least stop the pain in my head and at least not be thinking of suicide.
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vyvanceandvodka
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- Jan 7, 2026
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I'm sorry you're struggling. Are you able to exercise? Last time I felt really suicidal, I ran until I couldn't anymore. It's not a fix-all, but it's a slight distraction. Scream into a pillow, get a punching bag, do whatever you can to release the energy physically. It's really hard to get rid of the thoughts. I'm sorry, friend. I'm also attaching a file that talks about a DBT skill that's helped me. Let me know if you have any questions!
Wise Mind
EmptyBottle
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- Apr 10, 2025
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What helps me distract myself from annoying and unwanted thoughts is YouTube at a slightly higher playback speed... which makes a brain think more to process what is being said, which tends to help override thoughts.
One can also try YouTube in incognito mode if the algorithm isn't helping. Even browsing Wikipedia (once in a while) gives my mind smth else to daydream about.
