How to get over SI

[takeyourshotfunboy]

The rope arrived today. Logically I know I have no reason to live - no friends, no goals, nothing in this world that brings me joy. A few minutes of suffering is better than a lifetime full of it. But but my heart is pounding and I'm having a horrific anxiety attack. Even though my family have abused me there is a part of me that still loves them and doesn't want to hurt them. I need to be comforted, please.

 

[boingo]

I don't know but my family have abused me and destroyed my life and I don't love them or care about them, I think they should be in prison.

 

[henikova]

If you are not 100% sure about it, then don't do it. You have only one life. If you still feel love and you are concerned about others, you can postpone your action. If you have the rope, you can greenlight yourself anytime later when you feel certain.

 

[almostoutofhere]

I've had my rope for almost 2 weeks now. Practiced with partial, seemed to work pretty good, was on the verge of blackout a couple times. It seems like partial would be easier but my SI is too strong. Will be trying full again tonight, but I can't ever push myself to take that last step off…

If you are not 100% sure about it, then don't do it. You have only one life. If you still feel love and you are concerned about others, you can postpone your action. If you have the rope, you can greenlight yourself anytime later when you feel certain.

What if you're 100% sure about it, but can't get past the si?

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that with questions like this, there are no easy answers. But after all so many people have succeeded with the hanging method so I think that either those people got so desperate to free themselves from this existence or they just knew that it was the right time to leave and then they managed to go through with it. It does make this method sound so much easier than it actually is when you hear of all these people succeeding, I so envy them and admire their courage. Hanging scares me personally as I would be worried about something potentially going wrong if I tried to attempt. I really do hate the fact how we have to potentially suffer so much to leave this world.

 

[henikova]

I've had my rope for almost 2 weeks now. Practiced with partial, seemed to work pretty good, was on the verge of blackout a couple times. It seems like partial would be easier but my SI is too strong. Will be trying full again tonight, but I can't ever push myself to take that last step off…

What if you're 100% sure about it, but can't get past the si?

Changing the method?

 

[Ineedtodie]

i' m mostly in the same state as you and dealing with the same SI. I REALLY LOST ALL. no matter what other say how distorted my pov is. Why fear death when life is tremendously harsh toward me.
Sorry you're in a similar place. Wish you peace. Obviously I' m projecting my mental state in this. Wish you're not in the same spot.

I think that with questions like this, there are no easy answers. But after all so many people have succeeded with the hanging method so I think that either those people got so desperate to free themselves from this existence or they just knew that it was the right time to leave and then they managed to go through with it. It does make this method sound so much easier than it actually is when you hear of all these people succeeding, I so envy them and admire their courage. Hanging scares me personally as I would be worried about something potentially going wrong if I tried to attempt. I really do hate the fact how we have to potentially suffer so much to leave this world.

Knowing the time. I think its been really my time to do so for a while I rather act violently toward myself than toward others making me the monster. At least this way I make a point of how hurt and debilitated I was. How neglectful they were and how unfair they were toward me. I free my self from pain that never been understood or cared for. Its just a kick of a chair and all this torment will stop. Sorry for those suffering unbearablely in this life as society is violent and insane and there will be alwys suffering. Yet they don't get the chance to have means and tools to survive with dignity.