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Itsjustme21
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- Dec 4, 2020
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Because of pure luck the last doctor had no choice but to call me in sick for any work at all so i receive some government money now. The problem is the doctors that decide these things don't really know anything about autism (and probably depression). They think working full-time again will fix all my problems. The thing is that I worked full-time + school all my life and it made everything way worse and really hard to stay sober. Especially since (besides all the autistic overstimulation) I don't sleep every day. When I worked my schedule was like this: 1 hour sleep, 9 hours work, no sleep, 9 hours work, 1 hour sleep. So that was terrible and I eventually had to call in sick or i was gonna kill myself.
I will probably have to talk to a doctor soon and the previous 2 doctors reasoning was "you got your autism diagnosis now so all your problems are fixed now". They don't believe i am depressed or suicidal. So if the next doctor says the same I NEED to do an attempt, otherwise i will have to work again and i will probably kill myself for real. I don't want that. I want to finish therapy, feel better and THEN go to work, so i don't have to call in sick every week and be able to stay sober.
So anyone knows how to do an attempt that won't kill me and do any brain damage, but will end me in the hospital? I was thinking maybe 20mg of etizolam or something?
I will probably have to talk to a doctor soon and the previous 2 doctors reasoning was "you got your autism diagnosis now so all your problems are fixed now". They don't believe i am depressed or suicidal. So if the next doctor says the same I NEED to do an attempt, otherwise i will have to work again and i will probably kill myself for real. I don't want that. I want to finish therapy, feel better and THEN go to work, so i don't have to call in sick every week and be able to stay sober.
So anyone knows how to do an attempt that won't kill me and do any brain damage, but will end me in the hospital? I was thinking maybe 20mg of etizolam or something?