Life_is_Dead
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- Apr 7, 2019
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One of my good friends in film school just started dating a girl I confessed to a couple days ago. The girl is one of my good friends too, she rejected me nicely and we talked about it, but I was completely torn apart inside. She told me she liked someone else, and the fact that I confessed to her made her confess to my friend she liked.
Now I see them all lovey-dovey and it's too much. I'm a bit older than them, I never had love in my life, and seeing people younger than me happy, have love, and not going through all my struggles is soul crushing. I tried to get better but the universe doesn't want to leave me in peace. I hanged myself 4 years ago, the necktie broke when I was unconscious. I was so close to have peace, I was devastated when I woke up on the floor.
If I had a button to die I would press it, but I don't and I would like to have the courage to hang myself again but I don't. I have a rope now that I know won't break, but I don't know when I will be able to use it.
I won't be seeing my friends until the next year of school so at least I will have them out of my sight. But I can't be friends with them anymore. It's a shame because they like me, and I liked them, and we laughed, but it's too hard.
Did something similar happen to you ? What did you do.
Now I see them all lovey-dovey and it's too much. I'm a bit older than them, I never had love in my life, and seeing people younger than me happy, have love, and not going through all my struggles is soul crushing. I tried to get better but the universe doesn't want to leave me in peace. I hanged myself 4 years ago, the necktie broke when I was unconscious. I was so close to have peace, I was devastated when I woke up on the floor.
If I had a button to die I would press it, but I don't and I would like to have the courage to hang myself again but I don't. I have a rope now that I know won't break, but I don't know when I will be able to use it.
I won't be seeing my friends until the next year of school so at least I will have them out of my sight. But I can't be friends with them anymore. It's a shame because they like me, and I liked them, and we laughed, but it's too hard.
Did something similar happen to you ? What did you do.