Venting How to calm down when extremely need to ctb?

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I feel a huge need to ctb right now. I need to calm me down because I know I'm being impulsive. I don't know what to do.

 

[Sunshine]

Why do you feel that urge? What triggered it?

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

I feel a huge need to ctb right now. I need to calm me down because I know I'm being impulsive. I don't know what to do.

I wish I knew. Music is just about the only thing that helps me in those moments.

 

[Life_and_Death]

it probably isnt much help but i just try to ride it out.

 

[Soulless Angel]

take a breath and talk to us, what's up?

 

[Deleted member 14386]

I use large amounts of drugs, but start out with weed that's the best for getting me to calm down, but for others it can make it worse so to each their own lol
edit: talking would be way better though, at least it's distracting

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Why do you feel that urge? What triggered it?

Disfunctional family, chornic pain and frustration

 

[bigdog]

Drink whiskey 300

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

They are throwing me shit on my face. I am tired of this.

 

[I screwed up]

Don't do anything impulsively bro ... I know its easier said than done but pl try distract yourself , talk to us ...

 

[Deleted member 18655]

I have "bad" ways: bulimia, cutting, etc.

But I also use music. I have folders like "up" and "down" and play the music that mirrors what I'm feeling. I love taking long drives with loud music. And I exercise to distract myself.

You need to find the distraction that will work for you and stick with it.it may take a while to find.

 

[Worndown]

One method is to reach out to this community. You will never find a more sympathetic ear in troubled times.

 

[Sunbeam]

I think anything that can delay is what works for me. I think of it as buying time. A therapist asked me once to consider what I would lose by putting off CTB .I can't think one day at a time. I literally chunk out to shorter goals so aim for 1 hr . Sometimes 5mins. I have bi polar and sometimes just too difficult to work out why so impulsive. Distraction is exhausting mind you so at some point I sandwich between trying to get out as my home can feel very unsafe. Trying to work out why when in middle of such distress is like trying to put up a tent in a storm. You can't. You have to wait until the storm has passed then see if you can look back and see triggers earlier on. I hope you feeling more settled.

 

[HeavyOne]

First, can I say a big F to all disfunctional families (mine included)?

When I reach my limit, I start walking restlessly in circle, around a large table (funny, repeating movements calms me down) and I start talking alone to "organize" my thoughts (in those moments I feel overwhelmed my emotions, pain, range).
I wish I was able to vent, it would be much helpful to me...

If you want, "unleash your thoughts and tongue" (in PM too, if you want).
I will listen to you, whenever you want...

 

[Sunbeam]

That repetitive thing ....yep

 

[Deleted member 18655]

This is a really bad day. I was just out and, walking in a shop, all I could think about is how badly I want my SN to arrive. All I could hear is this:

If I had it here, I wouldn't be here.

I suppose music is my way of coping. It's not helping today, but usually a drive and some music helps. As I posted above, bulimia is a horrible way to cope. But I was out buying junk food, so if you'll excuse me, I have to go and...cope... with being alive.