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My question is - for me to keep trying to see if I can find any medication that works, I also have to accept the fact that I am pretty bedridden without anything that works for me, and also wanting to die and panicked all day.

I don't have any pills at the moment that are providing much relief, even for a day off.

Last week a pill worked for 11 days for me, and I talked to my boss about going back to work - and this week I am back to this bedridden life.

Is there any way to accept this for a while? I don't know how to accept it. I mean I tihnk in some ways I am accepting it, and in other ways I don't want to live another day like this - and this is my second year now of being bed ridden (the depression has been for 20 years).
 
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I'm sorry you're suffering, @LittleJem. It seems encouraging that you found a med that helped you for 11 days - I imagine it must have been dreadful to relapse after that, but at least it was a step in the right direction, right? What has your doctor said about it? Can adjustments be made to the dosage or regimen to achieve effects like that for longer?

Can I ask what your work is? (I'm disabled as well, and although I'm not bedridden I'm pretty much housebound. I have work I can do at home, fortunately.)
 
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I'm sorry you're suffering, @LittleJem. It seems encouraging that you found a med that helped you for 11 days - I imagine it must have been dreadful to relapse after that, but at least it was a step in the right direction, right? What has your doctor said about it? Can adjustments be made to the dosage or regimen to achieve effects like that for longer?




Can I ask what your work is? (I'm disabled as well, and although I'm not bedridden I'm pretty much housebound. I have work I can do at home, fortunately.)

It wasn't from the doctor, it was a supplement I heard about online, Lithium Orotate. The reviews were so good. It might be I should give it a full month to try it - some reports say it works straight away, but there is someone who says give it four weeks. It seems anything that ever works for me only gives me a few weeks, then back to depression. I've tried two psych meds so far - next stop is trying another one of them. I am scared of the side effects, but am going to have to put myself through another one.

I work for a charity/arts organisation. I should say I worked. I don't thikn I'm going back... My boss was going to give me a really cool project. Unless I discuss with her doing it from home in any moments I am feeling better - to keep that as an option. I can sometimes feel a little better after 11pm!

For you - is it a mental illness or physical that you are at home with, or both? What is that you do?
 
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It wasn't from the doctor, it was a supplement I heard about online, Lithium Orotate. The reviews were so good. It might be I should give it a full month to try it - some reports say it works straight away, but there is someone who says give it four weeks. It seems anything that ever works for me only gives me a few weeks, then back to depression. I've tried two psych meds so far - next stop is trying another one of them. I am scared of the side effects, but am going to have to put myself through another one.

I work for a charity/arts organisation. I should say I worked. I don't thikn I'm going back... My boss was going to give me a really cool project. Unless I discuss with her doing it from home in any moments I am feeling better - to keep that as an option. I can sometimes feel a little better after 11pm!

For you - is it a mental illness or physical that you are at home with, or both? What is that you do?

What keeps me housebound is a physical disability. I used to teach, but now I do copy editing and translating at home.

If the Lithium Orotate was so promising, I vote you should continue it for a full month to give it a fair chance. I hope you and your boss find creative ways for you to do that cool project. (((Hug)))
 
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I am bedbound hooked up to an oxygen machine. I work from my bed.
 
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I am bedbound hooked up to an oxygen machine. I work from my bed.


Thank you Soul for your kind words.

Thank you for sharing Jean4. I read so many of your posts and your kindness, wisdom and history blow me away.

I feel less alone for both of your messages - thank you
 
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Thank you Soul for your kind words.

Thank you for sharing Jean4. I read so many of your posts and your kindness, wisdom and history blow me away.

I feel less alone for both of your messages - thank you
If you ever want to talk, I am here. ;)
 

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