nzdarkshark
The Loved Mistake
- Sep 4, 2018
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This website has changed me - whether in a good way or bad - I can't deny it. The last two years of my life have been miserable. I joined this site...nearly a year ago - but stopped posting at the end of January after I started therapy. I've been on and off since then - checking in every couple of months. I'm on the fence of dying, on one hand I want to leave this trashy earth, but I also have so much to live for. This site taught me what 'pro-choice' suicide was - and that's something I've kept with me, because to me, the pro-choice idea makes sense. Who am I to stop someone finding peace if they've made their desision. I keep coming back here because though we all want to die in some retrospect - we all have respect for each other's desisions - something you can't find anywhere else.
I hope you all find the peace you deserve, whether that be in life or death. For now I'm continuing to work on trying to be happy - I'm starting gender therapy within the next month and am on Fluroxitine for my depression and anxiety. I don't know if it will work, I don't know if I'll ever be happy. But all I can do is try, because if I do ctb, at least I can say I tried.
I hope you all find the peace you deserve, whether that be in life or death. For now I'm continuing to work on trying to be happy - I'm starting gender therapy within the next month and am on Fluroxitine for my depression and anxiety. I don't know if it will work, I don't know if I'll ever be happy. But all I can do is try, because if I do ctb, at least I can say I tried.