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noname223
Angelic
- Aug 18, 2020
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Not sure how I feel about that. It is quite ambivalent. It depends on my mood I guess. When I was manic I thought maybe the people think I am a mentally ill genius.
When I am depressed it differs from situation to situation. Sometimes I am scared people notice I am not mentally stable. I was paranoid about that in the past. It is an ambivalent feeling. Sometimes I want that people notice my suffering and that they acknowledge it. It is a weird feeling. I could elaborate more on it. I think it is very intricate. But I don't have any energy anymore. And I also develop OCD concerning writing in this forum. This is quite annoying. This has happened since some weeks. And I get frustrated.
When I am depressed it differs from situation to situation. Sometimes I am scared people notice I am not mentally stable. I was paranoid about that in the past. It is an ambivalent feeling. Sometimes I want that people notice my suffering and that they acknowledge it. It is a weird feeling. I could elaborate more on it. I think it is very intricate. But I don't have any energy anymore. And I also develop OCD concerning writing in this forum. This is quite annoying. This has happened since some weeks. And I get frustrated.