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- Aug 18, 2020
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I have asked me this question recently. I am ambivalent on it. I think it is pretty random where you are born. The society you live in is completely coincidental. And the society you live in will shape you a lot. Your genes are random. It is extremely unlikely that we come into existence in the first place. (when we think about the myriads of sperms etc.) We cannot really influence how our parents treat us when we are in a very young age. I was exposed to abuse and I barely could do anything about it.
There are a lot of things we cannot really influence. Due to the fact that I am a control freak I really dislike that.
Though I am opposed to fatalism or hard determinism. I try to fight as good as I can. I try to make the best out of my situation as good as I can despite the fact my chances of success are pretty small. I try different heuristics to evaluate which path has the best chances of success.
I talked with a lot of professionals, read literature and statistics about my illness. I also have done a lot of mistakes. Especially when my mania deceived my mind. Also sometimes my mind was deceived by my depressions.
But I am more or less happy about the path which I have taken during the 3 years. I think my life will still end with a catastrophe but I could prevent the worst at least for the moment. Some of my decisions were quite dangerous. But I have handled several emergencies during the last 3 years in a good way.
I am really scared about the future. I am scared that the worst is yet to come. I imagine all the cynical developments which are currently in progress in my life which I barely can influence.
Okay this was a little bit off-topic. I wanted to emphasize with that that life is not completely random in my opinion. There are things we can influence. But it is very difficult to make the best decisions. If I have to make an important decision I often procrastinate it. I fear horrible consequences. But at least I could escape the psychosomatic pain. This is one of my biggest accomplishments.
I often try to play it safe. But my insecurities eat me alive.
What is your philosophy? How random is life in your opinion?
There are a lot of things we cannot really influence. Due to the fact that I am a control freak I really dislike that.
Though I am opposed to fatalism or hard determinism. I try to fight as good as I can. I try to make the best out of my situation as good as I can despite the fact my chances of success are pretty small. I try different heuristics to evaluate which path has the best chances of success.
I talked with a lot of professionals, read literature and statistics about my illness. I also have done a lot of mistakes. Especially when my mania deceived my mind. Also sometimes my mind was deceived by my depressions.
But I am more or less happy about the path which I have taken during the 3 years. I think my life will still end with a catastrophe but I could prevent the worst at least for the moment. Some of my decisions were quite dangerous. But I have handled several emergencies during the last 3 years in a good way.
I am really scared about the future. I am scared that the worst is yet to come. I imagine all the cynical developments which are currently in progress in my life which I barely can influence.
Okay this was a little bit off-topic. I wanted to emphasize with that that life is not completely random in my opinion. There are things we can influence. But it is very difficult to make the best decisions. If I have to make an important decision I often procrastinate it. I fear horrible consequences. But at least I could escape the psychosomatic pain. This is one of my biggest accomplishments.
I often try to play it safe. But my insecurities eat me alive.
What is your philosophy? How random is life in your opinion?
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