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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
150
I wasted all my years from me being 16 years old, up until my current age of 38. If I wasn't depressed, I'm 100% sure that I would've accomplished much much more.
 
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gimpyfairy

gimpyfairy

Member
Sep 23, 2025
19
Been depressed since I could think, thanks to my parents' abuse, I'm 20 years old currently, just idling until I die.
 
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xaninos

xaninos

If this is still here after oct 31 2025 I am dead.
Oct 16, 2025
17
Since my childhood. As long as I could remember I've felt the fact that I was alive is wrong and a horrible mistake. It's been just shy of 31 years.
 
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NutOrat

NutOrat

Daydreaming
Jun 11, 2025
112
Enough that I will never be able to make up for it anymore. Everyone have been building up their portfolios, moving, achieving, and I was sitting in my room doing nothing but waste away. There is no catching up now.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Enlightened
May 10, 2025
1,762
I wasted all my time with being depressed, work and fake friends who exploited me
 
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snow_in_summer

snow_in_summer

眠い
Jul 26, 2025
25
Wasted tons of time and I just feel permanently behind. People are always like "stop feeling bitter about the past - you can't change it." Yeah, I wish it was that easy
 
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backofthenet

Member
Jul 2, 2025
5
Being depressed isn't a waste of time. I embrace it.
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
368
Since I was twelve years old, so thirteen years.
 
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vampire2002

vampire2002

weeb & neet ♡
Oct 8, 2023
186
since i was 11, so over half my life at this point.. and i always had bad anxiety even before that for as far back as i can remember, at least. still, all my combined mental issues have just stolen... well, everything? depression, social anxiety, and an eating disorder basically turned me into a husk. my teenage years are mostly a blur, i didn't have fun or friends, i just worried about food and what people thought of me and hated myself. and not much has changed i guess, but now i also have debilitating OCD that developed in the early years of the pandemic and just completely halted my already slow, strained progress in life. i feel like i was barely able to keep my head above water as it was, and the trauma built up in my body that was never let out over all those years just broke my brain and body.
 
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rainatthebusstop

rainatthebusstop

Member
Aug 20, 2025
70
Eh probably all the time I've lived? But I think starting age 8 until now. That's a whole smacking 19 years no one's ever getting back. At this point just shoot me it's not getting any better
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
292
I wasted all my years from me being 16 years old, up until my current age of 38. If I wasn't depressed, I'm 100% sure that I would've accomplished much much more.
36 here and similar. Bare minimum last 15
 
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Seneca65AD

Member
Oct 28, 2025
18
This question really strikes a nerve. Around age 12 to present - age 60. Outwardly I'm considered successful. Intellectually I know that I am successful, but emotionally I feel like an open nerve where every interaction, whether positive or negative causes extreme anxiety. I managed to hang on this long because of some weird belief that others have it worse and manage to still be here. The biggest regret is what could I have done with my life if did not focus on CTB and instead put my emotional effort into "living". I do not find it surprising that so many younger people chose CTB; I find it extremely sad and frustrating that there are limited resources to get them to try to make it to the end of the day, then the end of the week....end of the month, etc. I will never say that things get "better" because emotionally they did not for me. But I just managed to keep moving the goal-posts of my expiry date....and admittedly I have found brief moments where the anxiety, depression and catastrophic thinking is bearable...maybe I have even been happy at times.
 
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telekon

telekon

Specialist
Feb 5, 2025
316
I waste about 2 hours a day being depressed for the last 3-4 years so let's say about 2,920 hours wasted

I am currently wasting time being depressed FYI :D many other things I could be doing
 
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Dark Moon

Dark Moon

Elementalist
Sep 21, 2022
881
Many years have been lost to depression, around 10 years or so.
 
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vanillamilkshakes

vanillamilkshakes

Aspiring Corpse
Aug 26, 2024
511
Long enough to warp time, it seems like I've blocked out a significant amount of my life. False hope is the only reason I'm still here.
 

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