barelyalive
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- Jun 12, 2019
- 23
Throwaway9787
Mage
- Jun 27, 2019
- 545
Loli
highly flammable
- May 25, 2019
- 119
barelyalive
Member
- Jun 12, 2019
- 23
Has it changed your opinion on suicide?
has it changed your opinion on suicide?
Throwaway9787
Mage
- Jun 27, 2019
- 545
not_a_robot
"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
- May 30, 2019
- 2,121
Loli
highly flammable
- May 25, 2019
- 119
Ruffian
Jumpin Jack Flash, it’s a gas gas gas
- Jan 16, 2019
- 696
I don't know if I can say honestly, as a couple were gestures, and I even blocked out the memory of cutting my wrists once. I was really desperate a few times when I was younger, and before the internet I only knew methods from movies and TV which are pretty unreliable. I would put serious attempts at 4. That's why I'm here and why I'm taking my time. It's good SS exists - respect to the admins who keep it going and fight for our right to free thought and free speech. I never realized how much patience you really need before.
Robbyna
Student
- Mar 6, 2019
- 182
I've attempted twice. Found out that I need a plan and execute it instead of just impulsive tries. Probably go better than last time.
cornflowerblue
Mage
- Feb 18, 2019
- 553
Twice as impulsive gestures, though at the time I thought they were serious attempts. After the gestures, I regained hope of improvement.
Once as a serious but impulsive attempt. After that, I gained hope that even if I don't improve that I'll at least be able to tolerate life.
Once as a serious and rational, well-planned attempt but I misjudged how quickly people would realize I'm missing and how easily they'd find me, as well as how long the method would take, so I was found and "saved". After that, I haven't gotten hope back and I am so deeply tired. My soul is tired. I let my exterior life get worse because having a good life didn't make a difference anyway.
Now I won't try again until I'm 100% sure it would work.
Once as a serious but impulsive attempt. After that, I gained hope that even if I don't improve that I'll at least be able to tolerate life.
Once as a serious and rational, well-planned attempt but I misjudged how quickly people would realize I'm missing and how easily they'd find me, as well as how long the method would take, so I was found and "saved". After that, I haven't gotten hope back and I am so deeply tired. My soul is tired. I let my exterior life get worse because having a good life didn't make a difference anyway.
Now I won't try again until I'm 100% sure it would work.
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pennyworth
Member
- Jun 26, 2019
- 6
I really tried once, that I almost died. But had a lot of times that I try to force my death... at least, my mind didn't enter with sincronization with my body, and nothing really serious happened. Just agony.
LifeIsNotFun
Mage
- Jun 1, 2019
- 530
inconsequential
Enlightened
- Jun 1, 2019
- 1,011
13. Yeah, I know, I know.
10 of those attempts were under the age of 15; I was very dumb and could never quit trying to use fucking pills and other pharma overdoses.
The 3 serious attempts were two opioid overdoses (my metabolism doesn't allow for this via PO, probably IV though, learned my lesson), and by jumping into traffic. I ended up with a cracked skull & a few fucked up neck vertebrae.
OBVIOUSLY JUMPING INTO TRAFFIC WAS VERY FUCKING DESPERATE AND NOT WELL THOUGHT OUT.
10 of those attempts were under the age of 15; I was very dumb and could never quit trying to use fucking pills and other pharma overdoses.
The 3 serious attempts were two opioid overdoses (my metabolism doesn't allow for this via PO, probably IV though, learned my lesson), and by jumping into traffic. I ended up with a cracked skull & a few fucked up neck vertebrae.
OBVIOUSLY JUMPING INTO TRAFFIC WAS VERY FUCKING DESPERATE AND NOT WELL THOUGHT OUT.
Suicidal4Ever
Specialist
- Sep 22, 2018
- 330
thedutchguy
Slowly drowing
- Jun 5, 2019
- 114
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