How many times have you tried?

[klonoaencore]

I just tried drinking SN. I put everything in my mouth, but I couldn't swallow... I think I put too much water. I need to try again someday... It's the second time, but the first I just threw away in the sink.

 

[Dizzylady80]

I've had at least 4 attempts that i remember. I'm sorry bb, attempts are so traumatic and awful are you feeling okay physically after trying to drink it?

 

[Zegers]

None. It will be just 1 when the time comes.

 

[Forever Sleep]

None. And it's a good job really... When I first had ideation, there was no internet (32 years ago...) My thoughts were slitting my wrists or overdosing on paracetamol. Both likely would have failed and had horrible consequences.

I'm also REALLY hoping I'll be one attempt and out but I guess none of us really know.

I'm sorry about your recent experience with SN. It must be a frightening thing to do. Yes, I'd say proper measurement sounds important. I bought a shot glass with measurements on and some scales to be ready. Doesn't look like very much water you use.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

0 where I went through with it, because I really hope I would die at 1. And before internet all of my ideas were terrifying as well.

 

[Givenuponlife]

About 2 attempts nearly a decade ago. I wasn't really serious though and they were cries for help, with mixed results. What I got from the last "attempt" is that, if I attempted again, I should make sure I actually make an effort and succeed at it. I'm suprisingly good at reining in my impulses.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've never really properly attempted even know I've never wished to exist at all and I'm always thinking about how ideal it would be to leave this world. My reasons are because I would fear something going wrong if I attempted, which would just cause me to suffer more and also just having limited access to methods. I so hate the fact how voluntarily exiting this world can be this difficult.

 

[amelis]

I've had a few attempts, only 2 of them were serious. They weren't planned and I still don't know what pushed me, as I suffered memory loss. Next time will be thoroughly planned and thought out.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I have probably had about 10 attempts. Most were impulsive though so obviously didn't work. 3 or so were serious: planned out, severe injury resulted, etc. I will not fail again.

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

Genuine, aiming to die attempts. 3.
Ended up in hospital for a long time after one.
Interrupted in another.
Seemingly succeeded but failed on the third

 

[CandyCane]

0

 

[Aesthetic guy]

once i was totally ready to hang myself... i was on chair with rope around my neck. but the though of my mother seeing me like that made me to move it to another time.

 

[Bah]

2.

The first, I tried to jump into the sea. I don't know how to swim and I wanted to drown. But my SI was very strong and I couldn't do it.

The second time, I tried partial hanging and failed to pass out. I've been trying for hours and couldn't...

 

[forgottenabout]

What I class as an attempt on my life is different to others so I've lost count on how many times.

 

[jessisme]

Four times. One time came very close to succeeding but was interrupted. If only they had just left me alone.

 

[Rainy_days]

One full attempt, one half-hearted the day after first. My latest one wasn't a full attempt, made all my preparations but chickened out at the very last step.

 

[SamTam33]

Six "proper" attempts I believe, but I'm sure I'm forgetting some.

I also make attempts that aren't conventional. Like trying to contract deadly diseases and getting struck by lightning... I know most people don't see it as funny, but I'm lol'ing at all the unconventional things I've tried.

The ones I've dreamt up and haven't tried yet are even funnier. Like joining a cult that has access to special Kool-Aid.

 

[Unending]

I'm yet to have a proper well thought out attempt but during my teenage years I routinely went out of my way to get myself killed knowing damn well what I was doing. I'm honestly surprised that I was never killed or seriously injured but that being said, I am glad nothing came of it because it is far more likely that I would just be in a way worse situation now.

I was mainly messing with tall heights while nearing a state of black out drunkenness but they weren't all tall enough to guarantee success, that's for sure. I feel like the years of contemplating this since sobering up have made me take it more seriously. I feel like I'm more likely to get it first try now than if I started trying concretely at a younger age.

Edit: Also, I'd just really prefer not to ctb by splattering. Violent means are out of the question unless it is the only option. I really would like to avoid a situation that required these methods.

 

[𖣴 nadia 𖣴]

Twice, the first one was an unplanned attempt years ago with paracetamol and alcohol after being sexually assaulted. I don't know if the second one counts as an attempt, it was planned full suspension but I bottled it in the last minute. Changed my method to SN since then, so third time lucky.

 

[CannotAnymore]

Twice this year.... hanging didn't work cause I'm heavier than I thought and came crashing down...

SN didn't work.... I woke up 16 hours later.

 

[Lifeless mindset]

Twice. Tourniquet, suffocation. I made a promise to myself that my next attempt would work and I don't plan on attempting again until I know for sure that it will work.

 

[NoLightRemains]

Zero. I'm not very impulsive and want to have everything planned as much as possible. Very determined to succeed on first try.

 

[Wannagonow]

Decades of thinking about it. 4 total attempts- 2 sort of half-hearted when I was way younger and 2 dedicated, planned out attempts that landed me in the hospital each time.

 

[SectOfValtiel]

none
still not sure i ever will, or at least it feels like its a ways out if i do
just dont think ill ever have the guts for it
though i wish i could just say fuck it and push through the fear, its not exactly like i have any other reasons not to

 

[Mofreeko]

I sort of tried to prepare for one a few years ago. The side effects of meto stopped me in my tracks. They were so bad I went to the hospital.

 

[wait.what]

One … I tried to hang myself, but this was before there was easy access to the internet, so I didn't have a rope-tying tutorial. Obviously I fucked it up. Stepping off that chair was one of the braver things I've done, though, and I'm perversely rather proud of it.

I was locked up for about a week after that, on a ward where we had to do shit like paint wooden yo-yos. I was like, damn, so if you try to kill yourself, you end up four years old? WTF is this? I swore I'd never fail again, and I won't. When and if I try again, it'll be with a shotgun.

 

[lilin]

0
Hopefully my first time will also by my last and I'll succeed

 

[my-end]

7 .In 37 yrs.
Had to edit.. can't believe I forgot one. I didn't realize it's been so many. I'm not who I've considered myself to be. Most of the time I think I'm fairly mormal but,... that's not normal.

 

[Szinuus]

2 - try to electrocute myself in bathtub, and jump

 

[Reallysad]

Twice in 4 years