Once and it gave me brain damage which is why im conflicted now, I want to live but the brain damage from not breathing while passed out has caused me permanent brain damage from two years ago.... Took a bunch of benzos off the darkweb (could of been anything i didnt test them) and alcohol but i didnt die i just woke up with brain damage.
I have weird headaches all day everyday only relief i get is when i sleep. I feel slow, My head hurts most of the day, my balance and hand eye coordination is fucked. Im trying to recover but its been two years of these symptoms with no relief. the tinnitus is horrible. Brain feels like its bleeding, its hard to read things fast. vision is blurry most of the time. They say neuroplasticity recovers the brain but i think its a myth. I Have some sort of hypoxic or anxolic brain damage from not getting oxygen while passed out that night.
Ahh it was a dumb choice. But i cant keep living like this either. so im stuck between being mentally handicapped for the rest of my life or attempting again. Spoiler: probably going to try again, Sn method