Discussion How many of you regret not CTB earlier?

[OzymandiAsh]

Seems like there are quite a few people here who wish they had CTB earlier, including some seniors (50+).

 

[darksouls]

yes

 

[sanctionedusage]

i had a great mindset for it when i was a lot younger, but people kept preaching teenaged and young adult years as the best of their lives, so i thought i was doing myself a disservice by missing out on them. i shouldve done it when i was 10 for sure. i think i was too young to understand death so i didnt feel scared by it.

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

If this includes not being born in the first place, YES.

 

[Blueberry Panic]

I should've died when he died ...

 

[NoHorizon]

Yes. I wish I'd jumped off Beachy Head the second I got there.

 

[Tautochrome]

Yes, fuck. I wish I had made decisive moves when N was still available

 

[theway1]

First time I thought deeply about ctb I was 22.

Now I'm in my mid-30s. I've had some fun moments and memories since then, but I would overall rate my life to date as 2/10. The main issue is that' I've suffered from sexual dysfunction my entire life, and it's been impossible to cure. It leads to humiliation, isolation and horrific emotional pain. To summarize my life in one word, "nightmare".

When I was younger I always had hope that things would better, somehow. Things usually work out. But it's so soul crushing when after all this time, things never got better.

 

[Elsie]

Should have died early so I won't be a burden or annoyance to anyone.

 

[Siamese Believe]

I do, I came so close…

 

[Gangrel]

yes because N was common back them, now it's almost impossible to get, probably impossible