Just wondering how many suicidal people lead seemingly normal life's on the outside, atleast normal for now. Basically how much of a shocker would your suicide be.
It would be a shock for almost everyone, except my girlfriend and my parents
Mywill
Member
- Feb 6, 2020
- 91
If you consider having a job and eats 3 times a day, I could say I am a normal person with normal lives.
BigLucs
M-23 NC. Don't want to turn 24.
- Apr 30, 2020
- 58
I attempted last August but my parents think I'm getting better. No one else would expect it. I have friends I see a few times a week.
Seemingly normal, yes. When I'm out, who's gonna notice? No one. People who are around me every day think everything's fine.
But at home, I break.
But at home, I break.
Vault of Memories
A temporary being in a temporary world
- Mar 24, 2020
- 255
When I survived my first attempt I read the notes on my patient portal thing a few years later and it said no family or friends had any idea I was depressed. At that point I had been suffering for about 9 years. I thought it was so obvious, but I guess I hid it well without much effort.
LMLN
Paragon
- Aug 10, 2019
- 929
No, my life is not normal anymore. It's a nightmare actually. I used to have a normal life, but that changed overnight. :(
disconnection
It's the blue hour again
- Apr 24, 2020
- 312
Same here. My life was pretty normal for a good 8 years or so though before that. Not bad going.
Pryras
Last hope
- Feb 11, 2020
- 524
Depends on what you consider "normal"
I had someone PM here saying they found me on FB and that I looked incredibly "normal" as in, someone who didn't have suicidal ideations. My family wouldn't be surprised but I think the acquaintances I've met would be surprised and carry on with their days
I had someone PM here saying they found me on FB and that I looked incredibly "normal" as in, someone who didn't have suicidal ideations. My family wouldn't be surprised but I think the acquaintances I've met would be surprised and carry on with their days
I guess I have a normal life. My suicide would probably come as a shock to my friends however my parents and my brother and sister know I'm depressed.
ssaaahmo
Experienced
- May 18, 2020
- 219
I guess I used to fit the definition of "normal."
got good grades in school with the exception of a d and three c's
had friends (now i have one left and i'm afraid to lose her too)
known as the "weird kid" in high school but just came across as average (just my guess, have no idea how they really perceived me 100% of the time)
home life was and still is hell, i got into self-harming at a young age and regularly starved myself and a bunch of other ed stuff, practiced my suicide a lot. there's a lot that goes on behind the scenes that no one sees
got good grades in school with the exception of a d and three c's
had friends (now i have one left and i'm afraid to lose her too)
known as the "weird kid" in high school but just came across as average (just my guess, have no idea how they really perceived me 100% of the time)
home life was and still is hell, i got into self-harming at a young age and regularly starved myself and a bunch of other ed stuff, practiced my suicide a lot. there's a lot that goes on behind the scenes that no one sees
I'm 38. I have a career, I'm good at what I do and I'm admired by coworkers, superiors and competitors. In my field, I'm the best. I've received industry awards and accolades. I own my own home. I have a nice car and I have several "toy" cars. I have less than 50k in debt and it's all in my house. I have no trouble getting laid, despite the complete lack of desire due to dysmorphia. Despite being a generally miserable fuck, people think I'm entertaining.
Yet I'm here.
Yet I'm here.
ssaaahmo
Experienced
- May 18, 2020
- 219
FireFox
Enlightened
- Apr 8, 2020
- 1,696
On the outside world
- My relationship with my family is ok but i cant tell them everything.
- i talk my friends i went university with
- my life is boring with a cycle of wake up, watch netflix with my younger sister, go on SS forum it easier i use the forum more when everyone is a alseep and bed.
I pretend to be happy as is it easier than telling the truth
- My relationship with my family is ok but i cant tell them everything.
- i talk my friends i went university with
- my life is boring with a cycle of wake up, watch netflix with my younger sister, go on SS forum it easier i use the forum more when everyone is a alseep and bed.
I pretend to be happy as is it easier than telling the truth
It would be a big shock. I live a fairly normal life on the outside--I work hard, maintain hobbies, and I communicate with my friends and my sister semi-regularly. No debt, with good income for my area/age. I'm respected at work and all my former workplaces have positive opinions of me.
I take my medication regularly, and as far as everyone knows, I don't have any SI(which is a big lie) anymore. I have severe anxiety and depression that I downplay to avoid concern from others.
I take my medication regularly, and as far as everyone knows, I don't have any SI(which is a big lie) anymore. I have severe anxiety and depression that I downplay to avoid concern from others.
warinmymind
Member
- Apr 16, 2020
- 11
I'm a Wife and Mother, my life feels very 'normal' and really blessed in a sense. I assume people wouldn't look at me twice but there's so much wrong beneath the surface like with many of us x
Despondent
Archangel
- Dec 20, 2019
- 6,777
Covidblows
Member
- May 18, 2020
- 42
One person knows I'm struggling.
Have a pretty strong personality so most people would think, if I'm not keeping contact with them, that I'm just thinning the herd.
But no one has a clue how broken I am right now. I intend on keeping it that way. If my circumstances change, no one will ever know and everyone will be better for it. I don't want to cause pain, I just want mine to stop.
Have a pretty strong personality so most people would think, if I'm not keeping contact with them, that I'm just thinning the herd.
But no one has a clue how broken I am right now. I intend on keeping it that way. If my circumstances change, no one will ever know and everyone will be better for it. I don't want to cause pain, I just want mine to stop.
StuckAF
Member
- Apr 16, 2020
- 92
I think no one here has a normal life. If we are in this forum it is because there's something wrong with our lives.
Alain
Student
- Mar 11, 2020
- 107
It's won't surprise anybody around me. My sister know I already attempted to suicide, my coworker at work too. So I guess that people around knowing this will happen sooner or later tells a lot about the "normality" of someone's life.
I know exactly what you mean, it's so much easier to say that I'm fine that tell them how I feel. In the past when I've tried to be honest about other stuff it's led to arguments so I find it easier to tell people what they want to hear.
Have u ever tried testosterone replacement? It might really help u with your issues. Just look into it. Look into biote. Google that term.
Thanks for the suggestion, As part of my healthcare regimen (I'm totally OCD, Patrick Bateman style, over my physical appearance and health) I get labs done annually. My numbers are fine. BPD, shit childhood and regrets of life decisions that have given me a life many people want but not the life I want.
To answer your other question
I do well at hiding mental illness and trauma because....I didn't have a choice. BPD, EDNOS, BDD, shit childhood. I work to occupy myself, not for the material comforts it brings. The severity of my desire to CTB ebbs and flows however the impulsivity of BPD makes it always there.
I'm the busiest person you'll ever know. If I'm not working my 9-5 I'm out hustling or something else to keep my mind and hands busy. It's afforded me things but not happiness.
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Oh ok, I think I understand more now. I also have borderline personality disorder and things haven't gone well for me at least in part because of that. With that extra money u make have u ever tried to find a good therapist? I just figured if u have the means it might be possible to overcome a lot of this. You are still young enough. I discovered this guy Brian Barnett. He has a Facebook group talking about borderline. He's also on Quora. I guess the guy knows how to overcome BPD but it's not going to be what the mainstream route is. The gov controls a lot of info on borderline so many people are misinformed on what it is and how to heal from it. I think that guy does some coaching. Brian did not begin to start to heal from it till he was 35. It took him like 7 years but he said it does not need to take that long.
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beyond_aquila_rift
Student
- May 11, 2020
- 103
I guess it depends on what normal means. But I have a job and hobbies and all that nonsense. I think my family wouldn't be super shocked but my friends and acquaintances would probably expect it. Everyone knows I'm a nutcase.
SleeplessSoul
Student
- Apr 10, 2020
- 131
Some people know about my mental health stuff and I have BPD so things are difficult. Generally though, I have a very normal life. My friends are really lovely. I was working full time but I'm off at the moment because of COVID. I have a decent amount of savings. I'm starting a PhD in October so have the next 4 years basically planned out?
katyhere
Member
- Jan 23, 2020
- 44
People would be surprised yes, but also because they are ignorant and people like to see what they wanna see lol and they will ignore what they want to ignore
JustAnotherSuicider
Hoping for the best - expecting the worst
- Dec 28, 2019
- 98
I don't think that I've got a normal live, the only "normal" thing left is that I'm still working, for now at least. Well, I don't see siting at home alone, cutting myself, crying for whole days, and preparing to CTB as "normal". But I guess for people it looks like it is normal (including my family), I'm really "closed" and I'm hiding my true feelings deep inside. So I think that it will be huge shock for all when I will CTB. I don't think that anyone beside my family will know about it tho, and even If - they won't care for sure.
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