How many of you have a job?

[FadeOut]

I'm lucky to have the job I have. I still hate it though.

How about you?

I'm curious how work situation relates to being suicidal in this community.

 

[Versailles]

I am one of the lucky few who have a job that they love at the same time, I am a programmer. I wish everyone could work at something they love to do

 

[wantittoendsoon]

I'm retired and I like it.

 

[newave3]

I'm retarded and I like it.

 

[FadeOut]

I'm retired and I like it.

I'm gonna add retirement as an option, thanks for your comment

 

[Soulless Angel]

Self employed but no work coming in, tried getting a *normal* job but failed on the medical due to mental health which sucks balls

 

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Self employed but no work coming in, tried getting a *normal* job but failed on the medical due to mental health which sucks balls

I'm sorry to hear that. I'm curious, what do you do?

 

[NoHorizon]

I have a job that I don't like. I'm not sure how much longer for though as I seem to no longer be managing to do very much so I assume it's only a matter of time before they ask me to leave.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I am theoretically able to work, but I have no motivation and so I am unemployed… it's like a sick day that's going on for a couple years

 

[maybemaybemaybe]

I have a job, but I'm getting literally nothing done, and it's only a matter of time before they figure out that I'm doing nothing and fire me. I know this situation could definitely be worse, but I hate that being employed makes everyone assume I'm OK and able to function because I'm really not.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I was and still am a creative freelancer. I loved my job. It meant everything to me. It's so hard to sustain financially though- so I'm currently looking for a more stable job. Or- temporary work to do alongside my freelance work. It's not going well. I'm so unmotivated. Doing the bare minimum each day. I already know from 10 years previous experience that I'm going to hate a wage slave job- if I'm 'lucky' enough to even get one.

It's honestly the main reason I want to CTB. I expect that sounds lame to a lot of people but I don't really care. Picture the most important thing in your life- and losing it. That's how I feel.

 

[Soulless Angel]

I'm sorry to hear that. I'm curious, what do you do?

I am a professional dance photographer (I have no shame of potentially iding myself on here coz you know I am stupid!) But I tried to be a bus driver, apparently I am too much of a health and safety risk...!

 

[Sadgirldaisy]

Yes, but I'm slacking off a lot and waiting to get fired.

 

[NoHorizon]

I know this situation could definitely be worse, but I hate that being employed makes everyone assume I'm OK and able to function because I'm really not.

Totally agree with this. If you're high-functioning with depression people assume it's "not that bad", like you're not worth listening to because you can still get out of bed. I know I'm going to end up dead at the weekend after having worked a full week just because that's the way my body/mind seems to operate.

 

[tiredone]

Lost job of 15 years last july, after 1.5 year off sick. I feel useless and worthless, but i know i would not be able to hold a "regular" job anymore due to my MH. Some days i even think i want to try but hour later feel so exhausted and mentally destroyed that i dont think i could keep one for longer than a day or two without calling in sick. I wish i could do something without leaving home, but i have no skills and i am too dumb to figure something to do. Even tried to learn something new, but nothing stays in this broken brain. Just wishing not to wake up everyday.

 

[Lamebrain]

Is it bad finding some kind of peace in knowing I'm not alone in this, I haven't had a conventional job in... well I don't want to even say, it's just been a long time. I technically have a potential livelihood at my fingertips with art, but I don't have the energy, motivation or focus to make anything anymore, it's quite distressing actually. Like a part of me is missing.

 

[Szinuus]

I study biology at a low-tier uni. Many of persons have dropped it since the october. Seems like I will be the only one of my group who will drop out life.

 

[western_heart]

Had a full time job, was fired in the fall & not interested in looking again

 

[Uk2023]

I'm lucky to have the job I have. I still hate it though.

How about you?

I'm curious how work situation relates to being suicidal in this community.

Unemployed and looking

Unemployment affects my suicidal thoughts the most. I have a qualification and a solid 12 year work history (started working at 16, always worked part time if studying)

I got overwhelmed and quit to travel.

Came home after 2 years in 2020 to the pandemic

Have been lost now.

Each time I get an email notification for a job application my first thought is 'I have a life?!' But so far no luck.

 

[jessisme]

Is anyone here on Disability?

 

[patpat]

I been looking for any type of work at all in sweden but I'm honestly kinda dumb and I'm too dumb to just finish highchool. Now I'm 30 and I can't find work even Mcdonalds said no.

 

[Wannagonow]

I don't think I fit into any of the categories. Worked all my life since my teens, until a few years ago.

My mental health took a major nosedive and I was no longer able to work. I am permanently disabled. (Mental health- not physical).

Don't really fit into the "unemployed, not mentally stable to work at the moment" category. My moment isn't coming back.

 

[Monkeyman]

I had a job until last December. Was let go, supposedly temporarily, but I know they're just going to stall me until I stop bothering (or, well, until I CTB). I was already looking for something else, though, since I absolutely hated that job. I think it might have contributed to increasing my desire to CTB because all the horrible stuff I heard from coworkers really made me question if I want to stay in this world and the working conditions overall were pretty terrible.

 

[Unending]

I'm mega unemployed. I can't work anymore due to chronic depression, anxiety, and all the other random diagnoses that I've acquired.

Before I completely lost the ability to work, I was job hopping like crazy.

Would work at a place for a week to 2 months and routinely end up in the hospital or having a breakdown and taking a few week break until the next place. I can't say I was too pleased with the experience.

 

[CTB Dream]

No able injury damage, even befr injury damage depeess ptsd etc no want interact human prefer lone worki

 

[Judy Garland]

I'm a loser. Everyone whose been in my life are in my head calling me a loser. I have no job. I have no skills. I am nothing. I'm ready to die.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I have a good job and I can't complain about it. But it's really just me earning money so I can survive. It's not what I'm meant to do nor what I want to do. And no matter how good things get for me in this job, I'm always thinking about how far away I am from what I want.

 

[RaspberriesLL]

I am a manager in public accounting and it's stressful as hell. It doesn't help my state of mind that's for sure.

 

[FadeOut]

I am theoretically able to work, but I have no motivation and so I am unemployed… it's like a sick day that's going on for a couple years

I am sorry to hear that, it sounds like you might be depressed? I'm in no way saying you are. But have you considered getting professional advice?

 

[Whole-Ad]

I'm part time employed in McDonald's which is such a toxic environment and sucks.