I'm not doing significantly better. I still have daily suicidal thoughts. However, dissociation has kicked in more frequently recently so it is less a matter of being in constant pain physically and emotionally and more a case of cruising on autopilot, just going through the motions, not entirely here. The flashbacks, nightmares and chronic pain aren't going anywhere anytime soon, and it's unlikely I will be granted funding for the treatment I need for any semblance of recovery, so I suppose the dissociative episodes are taking the edge off the panic, pain and hopelessness and replacing it with an empty void of numbness.