Hi, this is my first post. I'm 22, and diagnosed with BPD, EDNOS, adhd, OCD, social anxiety, body dysmorphia and depression.
I am beyond help, after various traumas over the years, long inpatient stays and previous attempts, I try to recover and each time I fall down harder. I'm currently on a high dose of paroxetine for my mental health and rarely leave my house, I feel so disgusting and hideous. People tell me I'm the opposite and that my thinking is distorted, but the way that I see myself genuinely makes me want to jump off a cliff. I hate myself.
I previously drank a bottle of ferrous fumarate used to treat my anemia a few years back, this was not a suicide attempt, and I didn't realise how toxic it was. But it gave me heavy metal poisoning and I was admitted to hospital after my mental health cared at the time saw how unwell I was becoming. I made it clear to them that this wasn't a suicide attempt, it was a way to try and get my iron levels up faster because of how exhausted I felt, was naive and unaware of the consequences at the time.
I'm currently stockpiling my iron medication. Hoping to get 2-3 bottles before New Year's Eve and drink them. How long will this take to kill me? I'm not bothered about pain, just out of curiosity, so I can know what to expect.
the iron is a prescribed one, it's called galfer syrup and easily fatal after one bottle if left untreated.
thanks in advance.
I am beyond help, after various traumas over the years, long inpatient stays and previous attempts, I try to recover and each time I fall down harder. I'm currently on a high dose of paroxetine for my mental health and rarely leave my house, I feel so disgusting and hideous. People tell me I'm the opposite and that my thinking is distorted, but the way that I see myself genuinely makes me want to jump off a cliff. I hate myself.
I previously drank a bottle of ferrous fumarate used to treat my anemia a few years back, this was not a suicide attempt, and I didn't realise how toxic it was. But it gave me heavy metal poisoning and I was admitted to hospital after my mental health cared at the time saw how unwell I was becoming. I made it clear to them that this wasn't a suicide attempt, it was a way to try and get my iron levels up faster because of how exhausted I felt, was naive and unaware of the consequences at the time.
I'm currently stockpiling my iron medication. Hoping to get 2-3 bottles before New Year's Eve and drink them. How long will this take to kill me? I'm not bothered about pain, just out of curiosity, so I can know what to expect.
the iron is a prescribed one, it's called galfer syrup and easily fatal after one bottle if left untreated.
thanks in advance.
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