ctoan

ctoan

Arcanist
Sep 30, 2018
437
mom: i just straight hate her to a point where its just stereotypical. she always claimed to love me but literally never was there when i needed her at as a kid. blamed me for her own failure. stopped talking to her when i moved out with 19 - only thing i regret is that i didnt do this earlier

father: indifference


siblings: they dont understand and to be quite frankly they are pretty arrogant since im the "black sheep" of the family
 
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CJM

Experienced
Jul 13, 2018
246
Dad - Dead, but him and I were really close he was like a good friend. That one will always be tough to get over. His death was the catalyst for tipping me over the edge.
Mum - Shes an amazing woman and I feel for her losing her husband, always does her best by us.
Brother - Not as close as we used to be, hes his own man now but we still keep in touch, he's doing well for himself and im proud of him.
 
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Deleted member 1496

Student
Aug 2, 2018
183
Something was always wrong, but I didn't see it until the last few years, reading about other people's experiences or seeing other people's reactions when they were treated the same way. Unfortunately, I'm too old and exhausted to separate and start over somewhere new on my own.
  • dad: arrogant, derisive bully, even when you're helping him. appearances matter more than anything else.
  • mom: narcissistic and complaining, even while you're helping her. thinks she's literally the best mom in the world.
  • eldest sibling: molested me. wish she was dead.
  • elder sibling: questions you like you're on trial if she doesn't get the answer she wants, even if it's about how you want to spend your own life, time, money, etc.
they dismiss anything I say. but I won't have to cope for too much longer.
 
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DreamFreedom

DreamFreedom

Thane
Oct 3, 2018
68
I always had a closeish relationship with my family. Yet they all seemed to be closer to each other than to me.
~My mum is the nicest most considerate person I know. She tries to understand but I'm not an open person. I couldn't fault her as a mother,
~my dad is kind of a man child. He's not a typical responsible father. He's always making jokes that aren't funny. But he's not a bad dad. I sometimes feel like he's a family friend that I have to laugh with to be polite.
~my sister is great. She's probably my best friend, even though all we do together is watch tv. She works and has a future and is just the person I failed to become.
~my brother is okay. We don't talk much. He gets on a lot better with my sister, they're very similar, unlike me. I don't really have much to say about him.
 
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Smilla

Smilla

Visionary
Apr 30, 2018
2,549
Parents basically dead. Mom has dementia, remains in a nursing home languishing as she awaits death. Dad died when I was four.

Sibling is older, and one of my main reasons for CTB—abusive, narcissistic bully who is wildly successful, go figure.

Dysfunction junction= my family. Will be relieved to not pretend anymore.

Received flowers from him for bday—flowers promptly wilted and then went into trash.
 
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Roph

Specialist
Sep 24, 2018
355
My mother and I never/rarely speak.

My sister and I briefly text every 1-2 months.

My aunt texts me every few days to check on me.
 
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TengoK

Member
Aug 1, 2018
95
My family seems to have been in a perpetual state of crisis since the mid 80s. Over 30 years. I'm fucking exhausted by it. Again, they're a major reason why I just want out of this life.

Mother - I wouldn't even be considering ctb if she were still alive. She spent the last 5 years of her life getting progressively more and more ill, but died 2 years ago.
Father - Utter bastard. Pathologically mean. Haven't seen him since a surprise, very awkward meeting in 1992 when I was at university. Before that I hadn't seen him since 1988.
Sister - She and I hate each other. Her antics with her partner are largely why I'm living in my appalling housing situation.

I can't stand any of them now. I want them all gone from my life, and I think the only way I can do that is to be gone from my own.
 
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skyofAuroras

skyofAuroras

Student
Apr 10, 2018
136
Dad: It's complicated. He's hadn't really been a parent for most of my life, and last year when I came out to him he said and did a lot of hurtful stuff. He has apologized for everything and he's trying his best to be to be a good parent. However I still get upset thinking about the way he's hurt my siblings.

Mom: We're okay with each other. Pretty normal relationship with her.

Siblings: I'm close with all of them expect my older brother (he's an asshole).
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,622
Strained to say the least
 
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Iscrewupeverything

Member
May 26, 2018
44
Atrocious.

Read the story of my life for more details.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
mom: i just straight hate her to a point where its just stereotypical. she always claimed to love me but literally never was there when i needed her at as a kid. blamed me for her own failure. stopped talking to her when i moved out with 19 - only thing i regret is that i didnt do this earlier

father: indifference


siblings: they dont understand and to be quite frankly they are pretty arrogant since im the "black sheep" of the family
I have no contact with any relatives once I moved states. I can't bring myself to talk to my mother, she has tried to reach me through a friend but I felt like I have nothing to say to her. I'm a miserable failure and it's unlikely to improve so it's easier to just cut contact.
 
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GeorgeEastman

Arcanist
Sep 3, 2018
470
Mother died 7 months ago. Rest of my relatives left me for dead 10 years ago, now want to try to reconnect. Big waste of time. Probably just want me to stay around to do stuff for them. They're lazy and idiotic.

It would have been devastating to her for me to die. But it won't be to anybody else now. The rest of them showed their true colors the last 10 years. They can certainly do without me.
 
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Taylored

I've figured it out
Sep 20, 2018
321
Horrible I can't consider them my parents. They're more like guards keeping me from the outside world.
 
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Virgo

Arcanist
Oct 3, 2018
497
I have no relationships with my family. They aren't exactly decent humans.
 
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Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,133
Since I can be totally honest here, I can say that I *like* my parents and my brothers. I don't love them, though. Not their fault, though. Just one more way that I'm damaged. Our relationship is cordial, but rather distant.
 
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N-IsMyHope

Student
Aug 25, 2018
139
I hate one of my sister. She's so pretty on the outside but she emotional abused everyone in our family with her bad temper. I'm kind of piss that she will gain some of my money if I 'm dead.
 
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