caliban
Member
- Jul 8, 2023
- 26
I get more and more comfortable with ending my life. I think it has always been meant for me to end this way. And not in a bad way, i'm yearning for the peace and quiet it will bring to me.
I've misunderstood myself for a long time. I didn't concentrate on my sentimental side. I didn't realize that we shouldn't worry about our responsibililies, since our time is so limited here.
My hope in myself, my surroundings and society has faded. In fact i regret not taking my life earlier. It feels like i'm living in the prologue of a book, that doesn't add anything fundamental to the story, but still tries to make some sense. I've been suicidal for 4 years now and at this point i fell like an overriped fuit that desperatly wants to separte from it's tree.
I'm defeated in the things I see as important in life. And I rather die than have to face this every day. There are people who are living the dream I wanted, and it makes me feel easier. It makes my failure personal and not all of humanity's.
I just can't keep on going, I've became someone I've desperately tried to avoid. Looking back I'm still happy for my life, the experiences and good memeories I got, but I don't have anything to look forward to.
I'm really sorry for all of you who share a similar pain. I think we have to accept our desitiny at the end.
I've misunderstood myself for a long time. I didn't concentrate on my sentimental side. I didn't realize that we shouldn't worry about our responsibililies, since our time is so limited here.
My hope in myself, my surroundings and society has faded. In fact i regret not taking my life earlier. It feels like i'm living in the prologue of a book, that doesn't add anything fundamental to the story, but still tries to make some sense. I've been suicidal for 4 years now and at this point i fell like an overriped fuit that desperatly wants to separte from it's tree.
I'm defeated in the things I see as important in life. And I rather die than have to face this every day. There are people who are living the dream I wanted, and it makes me feel easier. It makes my failure personal and not all of humanity's.
I just can't keep on going, I've became someone I've desperately tried to avoid. Looking back I'm still happy for my life, the experiences and good memeories I got, but I don't have anything to look forward to.
I'm really sorry for all of you who share a similar pain. I think we have to accept our desitiny at the end.
