Idideverythingwrong
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- Dec 2, 2024
- 45
Sorry about this, I honestly just needed to spit it out and maybe it would do me some good to have someone listen to me.
Here we go
I was born into an upper middle class family, parents separated but I don't think that influenced my decisions, they both did a great job.
I had an excellent childhood, I was always given everything I wanted, I went to a private school of great renown in my city.
I consider myself a very beautiful man, highly hegemonic, that in my opinion contributed to my always having a partner and allowed me to experience my sexuality to the fullest.
I was also always very intelligent and highly sociable, throughout my life I had 7-10 different groups of friends, good friends with whom I shared all kinds of things.
Here comes the problem, at 17 years old, because of my stupidity and looking for the approval of an older group, I tried cocaine.
At 18 I continued using and I got hooked at 19 maybe.
Everything that came after that was absolute chaos, I dropped out of school twice, I was always partying and cheated on all my partners.
At the age of 22 I had my first psychotic outbreak due to drug use, then I stopped using, but the mental damage was so high that at 23 I had another outbreak.
Currently my mental state is deplorable, I am taking a lot of medication, attending therapy and nothing works.
I am simply isolated from the world, I don't have much memory of periods of my life or of important things, I even find it difficult to retain things from day to day.
So, that's how I find myself today, from having everything to having nothing.
From a dream life to a life of misery because of a few bad decisions.
The consumption of that powder totally ruined my life, as I grew older I started to act worse and worse, I stole, I lied, I manipulated, I exposed myself to situations of extreme violence where I could have died (too bad it didn't happen).
That thing turned me into a person who didn't value his life at all.
I did a lot of crazy things.
Anyway, that was my story, that's how you can ruin a privileged life.
Now I'm going for ctb
Thank you very much for reading me, I am living a real hell.
Here we go
I was born into an upper middle class family, parents separated but I don't think that influenced my decisions, they both did a great job.
I had an excellent childhood, I was always given everything I wanted, I went to a private school of great renown in my city.
I consider myself a very beautiful man, highly hegemonic, that in my opinion contributed to my always having a partner and allowed me to experience my sexuality to the fullest.
I was also always very intelligent and highly sociable, throughout my life I had 7-10 different groups of friends, good friends with whom I shared all kinds of things.
Here comes the problem, at 17 years old, because of my stupidity and looking for the approval of an older group, I tried cocaine.
At 18 I continued using and I got hooked at 19 maybe.
Everything that came after that was absolute chaos, I dropped out of school twice, I was always partying and cheated on all my partners.
At the age of 22 I had my first psychotic outbreak due to drug use, then I stopped using, but the mental damage was so high that at 23 I had another outbreak.
Currently my mental state is deplorable, I am taking a lot of medication, attending therapy and nothing works.
I am simply isolated from the world, I don't have much memory of periods of my life or of important things, I even find it difficult to retain things from day to day.
So, that's how I find myself today, from having everything to having nothing.
From a dream life to a life of misery because of a few bad decisions.
The consumption of that powder totally ruined my life, as I grew older I started to act worse and worse, I stole, I lied, I manipulated, I exposed myself to situations of extreme violence where I could have died (too bad it didn't happen).
That thing turned me into a person who didn't value his life at all.
I did a lot of crazy things.
Anyway, that was my story, that's how you can ruin a privileged life.
Now I'm going for ctb
Thank you very much for reading me, I am living a real hell.
