How I decide whether to CTB or not

[uselessness]

I'm never fully sure whether I should CTB, and there's been times when I want to as well. I roll a plastic die, and if a 6 comes out, I would CTB. I really don't care about anything, and I think my life is worthless enough to be decided by a random chance. I'm not feeling like doing anything to myself anytime soon, but if horrible things happen to me, I would use the same method.

 

[love_peep]

its very sad that you feel it right now but i seem that its a bad idea use this way cuz also you need to decide you wanna live or not. i know that its a difficult decision but you need to decide it without any lucky i think. anyway i wish you goodluck

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in whatever happens going forward, good luck, I've never heard of anybody doing anything like that before but of course it's always a personal decision deciding if we die on our own terms.

 

[Dizzylady80]

I feel you, I've been grappling with this a lot myself. It's the last decision you'll ever be able to make so if you're this unsure then you probably shouldn't

 

[NambaSutra]

It's not so easy as a rational decision. Your brain knows it's permanent. It may try to stop you after you have "decided". It's called survival instinct. (SI)

 

[bedhead_baby]

If you're not 100%, then you shouldn't do it.

 

[uselessness]

Thanks for your concern. I'm OK for now. Don't worry about me. It's only something that happens when I'm at my absolute lowest, and I'm not at the moment. I'm not really considering CTB rn, and it's only when I feel useless, or if I feel more pain will come my way if I keep living. I'm sure that I want to, but it's actually more of a restraining measure I made, and I only use it when I feel like I want to CTB, but I don't use this normally. I'm fine.