how have your methods and outlooks on life changed with this website?

[roping]

i haven't been on and active enough to comment much on this myself.

how have your planned methods, initial, revised and current ones changed with exposure to this website? what about your general outlook on life and it's meaning (or lack thereof), might be a longer discussion that would need a seperate thread for, one i'm planning to make, but i'd also be curious about your thoughts on morality, if its objective/subjective, or more interestingly, even exists at all. might also want to make a thread regarding your religious concerns and beliefs, one more in depth than other ones i've seen on this site.

personally, i've thought suicide was ratonal for a while, and did in many ways view pleasure/suffering as a ratio, used to view it as a fixed ratio, i do still believe it holds some truth to it, but not concretely, a certain amount of pleasure can't come without a certain amount of suffering before, and vice versa. i've always thought about methods and viewed something like an opioid overdose (heroin or fentanyl) to be the most ideal, seems fairly painless, they are painkillers after all, there are many people who accidentally ctb on them all the time by overdose, and the brought state of unconsciousness with a depressant, not a stimulant, meaning you won't be hyper and potentially paranoid or anxious in your last moments would make it all the while easier, however thought of hanging as one of the easiest, most accessible methods, and upon my search for more details on the matter found this website and am now very interested in SN as the ideal method (due to availability, im excluding N) i'm a nihlist and i thoroughly enjoy the liberation and sense of freedom that comes with the viewpoint, no consequence really means, much because theres no inherent value it strips you of. (saving religious and moral views for a different thread)

 

[FuneralCry]

This website has taught me how difficult ctb actually is and that knowledge and planning of the methods is needed otherwise they can fail. My chosen method will likely be hanging as it is the most accessible for me.
I see life as being pointless suffering. Everything is meaningless. Life is horrible, there is no limit as to how bad things can get and how much we can suffer. I see people who want to live as being delusional. In a world like this, I see wanting suicide as being perfectly rational, for me it is the only thing that makes sense. I see it as being better to never be born in the first place, as existence is the cause of all of our problems. Never being born means to never suffer.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

The planned method never changed, after lurking, I knew it would always be N

As for outlook on life and it's meaning… tough one. As this site can be an echo chamber, it's definitely made me have more of a negative outlook on life/people in general. But some of the members here are very empathetic and intelligent, and have had a positive influence on me.

I used to love life and was very happy with myself as a person. But after fucking things up and ending up here, I've felt more and more that life is pretty much meaningless, since we all die in the end anyway. At least that's what I end up telling myself to cope. I don't know if it's me being lazy and not wanting to at least try to recover, or my views of life have actually totally changed, and I feel that it's pointless to keep on living. Sorry, my mind is all over the place and I feel that I'm rambling