Sockeye Salmon
Student
- Mar 28, 2018
- 118
The pandemic has been absolutely terrible to both my mental and physical health.
Because of having to be forced to move back home with my parents, who have a narcissistic disorder, I've been doing nothing but lazing around all they. They try to control every aspect of my life and try to steer it in a direction that they think is right, because they think they're such a successful role model. They've taken away pretty much 85% of my personal freedom and privacy and have caused such an imbalance in my routine that it's driving my insane of having to listen to their quarrel. My house is such a place with little freedom and so much distraction that I can't focus on anything. Back during the start of 2020, I wanted to become productive with creating art stuff, but since having to move back in March, my schedule has pretty much consists of sleeping, eating, and playing games. I refuse (and pretty much can't) be productive in an environment that really doesn't want to make me feel comfortable. It's driving me insane and just contributes to my depression even more.
As for physical health, it's gotten worse as well. Because of feeling like absolute shit all the time at home, I've resorted to eating junk most of the time. My narcissistic parents kept trying to overfeed me with food they made days ago, and try to manipulate me to eat all of it, all in an attempt to make me overweight. I use my junk to compensate for that and as a result I've gained weight tremendously this past few months. I know I shouldn't. I want to go on a diet. But I can't when the food I regularly eat itself isn't that much good, and the environment I'm in now doesn't make me comfortable. My sleeping routine has been disrupted as well. Since I regularly stay up until 4 in the morning (since that's the time the house is peaceful without any commotion, mostly) I usually sleep in at around 5-6am and I just can't change that no matter how much I want to.
How about yours?
Because of having to be forced to move back home with my parents, who have a narcissistic disorder, I've been doing nothing but lazing around all they. They try to control every aspect of my life and try to steer it in a direction that they think is right, because they think they're such a successful role model. They've taken away pretty much 85% of my personal freedom and privacy and have caused such an imbalance in my routine that it's driving my insane of having to listen to their quarrel. My house is such a place with little freedom and so much distraction that I can't focus on anything. Back during the start of 2020, I wanted to become productive with creating art stuff, but since having to move back in March, my schedule has pretty much consists of sleeping, eating, and playing games. I refuse (and pretty much can't) be productive in an environment that really doesn't want to make me feel comfortable. It's driving me insane and just contributes to my depression even more.
As for physical health, it's gotten worse as well. Because of feeling like absolute shit all the time at home, I've resorted to eating junk most of the time. My narcissistic parents kept trying to overfeed me with food they made days ago, and try to manipulate me to eat all of it, all in an attempt to make me overweight. I use my junk to compensate for that and as a result I've gained weight tremendously this past few months. I know I shouldn't. I want to go on a diet. But I can't when the food I regularly eat itself isn't that much good, and the environment I'm in now doesn't make me comfortable. My sleeping routine has been disrupted as well. Since I regularly stay up until 4 in the morning (since that's the time the house is peaceful without any commotion, mostly) I usually sleep in at around 5-6am and I just can't change that no matter how much I want to.
How about yours?