Venting How glad would you be to finally leave this horrific world behind?

[FuneralCry]

I know that if I was to exit this existence today I would feel so incredibly relieved and glad, as of course I simply believe that we just cease to exist after we finally leave this world. I mean of course I would feel relieved as death is the only way to solve what is the true problem that is life itself, death is the solution to everything and to die would prevent more years spent in an existence that would get more and more torturous as time goes on. I do believe that existing is a form of torture, it's a burden having the ability to exist and it's something that is so tedious and unappealing.

There is no value to enduring endless days where we will just suffer more as time goes on and where things will just get worse. All that we are destined for is to age and then just deteriorate so of course it makes sense wanting to escape from this, I view to die as being the best thing possible as there is nothing more ideal than permanent non existence and lacking the ability to be aware of this world. All of our problems started when we were so unfairly forced into this world, where chance cruelly determines everything and where existing beings suffer all through no fault of their own. The existence of life is such a cruel mistake, a tragedy that never needed to exist so of course suicide isn't sad or tragic, suicide is the only way to be free from it all, and if I had N I would be long gone at this point.

The unfortunate reality is that for me actually going through with suicide is something that involves such difficulty. If I had access to some guaranteed peaceful method or knew that I was just going to pass away in my sleep of course I would be comforted by knowing that I was soon to be gone as I've never wanted anything to do with something so horrible as existing.

 

[Darkover]

i can't wait it's my biggest wish if there was one thing i could wish for it would to be nothing for all time, if i ever got to choose between being alive or never having to exist at all i'd choose to never be anything, this universe as to be the shitest thing that ever existed

 

[aforestfire]

i'd be so relieved, at this point death and release are the only things i truly wish for. i acknowledge that there's no way of finding definitive peace in life, and this thing of being a functional human being is not for me.

 

[Sunset Limited]

In an existence where you have a mortal and fragile body, high awareness is hell. The only thing that can make life fair for everyone is an exit button.

 

[redeyepiranha]

I'd be glad to leave this fucked-up world, I believe I'm not made for this life and my brain works against me pushing me to ctb, so my hope to die asap is resilient

 

[Forever Sleep]

I keep thinking about the feeling I'm expecting to get when I know I can go. All I can liken it to was when I resigned from an EXTREMELY stressful job after a few years. It was that feeling that the most enormous weight had been lifted from me. I suddenly felt human again. I'm guessing it will be like that but even better. I can't wait to not have to worry about the future.

Having said that though- my cue to leave will be my Dad's death which will devastate me. Plus- the brief feeling of euphoria that I'm finally free to do it will be quickly followed by a frenzy of activity- getting all my notes and scheduled emails written. Having a brief clean and preparing everything.

Plus- I'll want to do it quickly so I don't have the most terrible experience of seeing someone I would do ANYTHING to avoid at my Dad's funeral. Plus- I'm sure I'm going to start feeling nevous about the attempt. I actually think my feeling of freedom may be relatively brief unfortunately. Who really knows though? Maybe I won't summon the courage to even do it in the end. I really have no idea.

 

[PoisonousPotato]

I'd always be glad to quit this world, whether I'm happy or not. It's just not for me. I'm not comfortable communicating with other people. I don't really care about participating in this society.
Of course I live with an unbearable pain, and this is a reason to die. But again, not interested in this world.

 

[DukeDestroyer]

I'll be very happy to ctb before I have to fend for my self on the streets. Battling other homeless and out of control mental illness.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

As terrible and horrific as this world is, and it is, I'm only planning CTB in order to leave my miserable life behind. If my life were good, if I experienced some kind of happiness from living it, if I had a partner to travel life's pathways with, children, grandchildren, people for support as I got older, I'd hang around and ride it out until the end. Many people carve out their little piece of happiness in this world, even with all of the tragedy and heartbreak that is all too prevalent.

 

[LastFlowers]

In an existence where you have a mortal and fragile body, high awareness is hell. The only thing that can make life fair for everyone is an exit button.

Unfortunately even an exit button would not make life fair, not even remotely.
It is certainly better than nothing though, and intensely preferable to the methodology we're stuck with currently.

For me, I would love to have an exit button.
But I would still regret and bemoan the miserable existence I was already forced to endure.

 

[Source Energy]

I would be incredibly glad! Not another thought. Give me a drug that quickly puts me to sleep peacefully, and I take it on the spot. I am only still here because I can't do anything aggressive :(

 

[LastFlowers]

As terrible and horrific as this world is, and it is, I'm only planning CTB in order to leave my miserable life behind. If my life were good, if I experienced some kind of happiness from living it, if I had a partner to travel life's pathways with, children, grandchildren, people for support as I got older, I'd hang around and ride it out until the end. Many people carve out their little piece of happiness in this world, even with all of the tragedy and heartbreak that is all too prevalent.

I would never risk bringing anyone else into this world, but sure..I think a lot of people wish they had a better option than just suffering & death.
Especially when they're already here, being tormented by the possibility of something more when observing those around them.
I think the infliction of that unfulfillable desire is yet another layer of this living nightmare.

 

[Source Energy]

Unfortunately even an exit button would not make life fair, not even remotely.
It is certainly better than nothing though, and intensely preferable to the methodology we're stuck with currently.

For me, I would love to have an exit button.
But I would still regret and bemoan the miserable existence I was already forced to endure.

I fantasize about such button too. As someone else mentioned, maybe go back in time and stop the procreation altogether

 

[meatclown]

I'm aware of a feeling ingrained that there is something more to life than is tangible to us participating. I'll say there's nothing much for the scientific or rational in that platitude, but maybe for someone donning rose-colored shades. What is there is so frustratingly foggy; I sincerely have a use for some kind of task manager that'll run on the operating system of my neurology as to clear the background processes. There is more to say regarding the sentiment expressed and ignorance is what stings the wound.
Actually, I've rescinded my previous statement and would like to elaborate to you the best I can through this medium. I hold a belief that we are the universe unidly experiencing itself, and through the observation and minutia are participating in expanding its dimensions. The more I roll that idea around in my deplorably empty head the more fantastical and surreal my reality as a walking fool is. I am sick of consciousness' effects on me as an intoxicant and have prepared for myself a knot with thirteen loops and a pillowcase to hide my deceased countenance

 

[CTB Dream]

Ofc injury damage end vry glad this world nonsensia ppl make mean all no sense, see injury damage know all awful ,awful human try make sense life same species injury damage me. Wish soon leave awful life awful human

 

[ThisIsLife]

I view to die as being the best thing possible as there is nothing more ideal than permanent non existence and lacking the ability to be aware of this world.

I believe we are spiritual beings living a human experience, not human beings living a spiritual experience. I believe there is no such thing as permanent inexistence, i think that when we die, we go home.

Death is home.

 

[0000000000000]

I would probably cry out of relief.

 

[Lonerzepam]

Well said friend

i can't wait it's my biggest wish if there was one thing i could wish for it would to be nothing for all time, if i ever got to choose between being alive or never having to exist at all i'd choose to never be anything, this universe as to be the shitest thing that ever existed

 

[Dean Pelton]

I'm finally ready. I told myself I wasn't going to live to see 2023 but my perfectionist side kept finding things to "get in order" before doing it. Then I realized I was being ridiculous. I have no friends or family and the people around me know what's going on and have done nothing to help me, why should I make anything easier on them? And I really don't trust the police. I have no confidence that any of my wishes will be respected or that any of my letters will make it to the right people. So many things to worry about and zero guarantees any of it will work out. So I've let go of trying to get things wrapped up in a perfect bow. Taking my drink and somebody else can haul my stuff to the trash.

 

[itsallpointless]

Elated. I'm just so tired

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

What point in time do you mean? When you got N or when you took it and have passed the point of no return?

I have my rope and my tree and know all I need to know. But that does not make my glad. I hope I will be glad when I passed the point of no return, when I hang and know that I will pass out within seconds.

 

[missingpeace]

I think I will only true peace after I'm gone from this world. My 'sickness' keeps me in a state of desperation 24/7.. so until my last breath I will be suffering :(

 

[reiko1337]

I find no value in life, there really is no reason to be here. I'd be more than happy to leave this world, I can hardly wait. I suppose life hasn't been so kind to me, and it's not worth me staying for if it means more pain and suffering. I know life has its good moments, but it's all just a distraction and it never lasts. Ultimately, there's no reason as to why I should stay here. Besides, I'm just one person out of 8 billion, I doubt it would make such a difference. Even if it did make a difference to some, that isn't worth staying for. They'll get over it eventually, and I won't be alive to witness it.
So long story short, I'm defeated and at peace. I'm definitely ready to go.