thefaunasystem
🍃✨The Fauna System ✨🍃🪦
- Aug 5, 2023
- 8
Help. I need to do this as soon as humanly possible.
I don't have access to anything other than a rope and I haven't been able to get over my survival instinct doing partial. Can't get SN - got scammed. Can't get nembutal - same thing. I'm claustrophobic so an exit bag is my worst nightmare. Couldn't bring myself to slice my throat as thats how my friend killed herself. I just need this pain to stop.
I'm going to have to find somewhere to jump. The only tall buildings in my area are patrolled by feds or theres so many barriers that I don't stand a chance of climbing over or through.
Which leaves me with a railway bridge that I'd have to bring a literal ladder to climb over. The only place I can think of is a bridge near the unit I live in now. Its over a dual carriageway with a 60mph speed limit. I feel like I'll just end up getting crippled or become a vegetable and obviously I don't want that.
Does this stand a chance? Could I even just walk in front of a bus or under a lorry? I hate myself for it but I'm past the point of caring about traumatising people. I've dealt with enough trauma, I don't care about dealing it out anymore.
I'm honestly the most desperate I've been in my life.
I don't have access to anything other than a rope and I haven't been able to get over my survival instinct doing partial. Can't get SN - got scammed. Can't get nembutal - same thing. I'm claustrophobic so an exit bag is my worst nightmare. Couldn't bring myself to slice my throat as thats how my friend killed herself. I just need this pain to stop.
I'm going to have to find somewhere to jump. The only tall buildings in my area are patrolled by feds or theres so many barriers that I don't stand a chance of climbing over or through.
Which leaves me with a railway bridge that I'd have to bring a literal ladder to climb over. The only place I can think of is a bridge near the unit I live in now. Its over a dual carriageway with a 60mph speed limit. I feel like I'll just end up getting crippled or become a vegetable and obviously I don't want that.
Does this stand a chance? Could I even just walk in front of a bus or under a lorry? I hate myself for it but I'm past the point of caring about traumatising people. I've dealt with enough trauma, I don't care about dealing it out anymore.
I'm honestly the most desperate I've been in my life.