
hfdepression30
Experienced
- Mar 30, 2021
- 236
I know most people will probably say "Very. Most of the time.", but I wonder if there are many or any people who feel the same way I do. I have a total numbness and emotional detachment from myself; I never cry and rarely feel strong or heightened emotions regarding myself, my life or my circumstances. The only times I do feel emotions like sadness, happiness, anger etc is when I experience it on behalf of other people. I have a total empathy for others but not for myself.
I feel like my lack of emotion regarding myself is one of the reasons I've struggled to kill myself. I don't have any overwhelming sadness or anger to focus on and push me through in order to succeed. I attempt while feeling totally numb and when SI kicks in that's the only thing I feel.
I feel like my lack of emotion regarding myself is one of the reasons I've struggled to kill myself. I don't have any overwhelming sadness or anger to focus on and push me through in order to succeed. I attempt while feeling totally numb and when SI kicks in that's the only thing I feel.