halfstay
Member
- Feb 4, 2026
- 29
So I plan to CTB impulsively, probably soon. Long story short, I am bipolar, cutting addict, and for some reason unaffected by almost all types of medications. My SH tendencies and psychosis are ramping up quickly.
My plan is to go to a nearby state park (specifically, the outskirts of one) and get lost in the wilderness until something eventually does me in. It's freezing where I live, we just had a giant snowstorm, so I imagine it'll be hypothermia. But I'm not opposed to injury, drowning, or animals either. Basically like a few days to a week of going buck wild manic, no phone, no shoes, just nature and me doing stupid shit. I'm pretty okay with it being long and painful. Kinda counting on the psychosis to kick in so I'll be on cloud nine lmao. I guess my biggest gripe with this (admittedly, very dumb plan) is being located. But I imagine if I keep moving for a while, especially given the difficult terrain and shit weather, it'd be extremely hard to find me.
if there's any glaring issues I'm overlooking, other than it just hurting and being unpredictable, do let me know. thanks!
My plan is to go to a nearby state park (specifically, the outskirts of one) and get lost in the wilderness until something eventually does me in. It's freezing where I live, we just had a giant snowstorm, so I imagine it'll be hypothermia. But I'm not opposed to injury, drowning, or animals either. Basically like a few days to a week of going buck wild manic, no phone, no shoes, just nature and me doing stupid shit. I'm pretty okay with it being long and painful. Kinda counting on the psychosis to kick in so I'll be on cloud nine lmao. I guess my biggest gripe with this (admittedly, very dumb plan) is being located. But I imagine if I keep moving for a while, especially given the difficult terrain and shit weather, it'd be extremely hard to find me.
if there's any glaring issues I'm overlooking, other than it just hurting and being unpredictable, do let me know. thanks!
